Internal Politics.

[Luke Skywalker]

Thejigsup,

 

That is a nice user name as it accurate describes what's happened here.

 

Basically things crashed and burned so badly that I cursed the day I ever meet her, deleted all her emails and friend contacts and we just hate each other.

 

Essentially the short lived relationship, if you can even call it that at all, lasted within the month of November only, and on November 29th, everything was going fine near the end of the date, but she started getting critical of me as a 'man' and everything just nose-dived after that into one of the worst crash and burns that I have experienced in the past couple of years. But then again, it's just another scorpion sting from a woman - hopefully it doesn't poison my mind too badly.

 

I've decided to buy into the Doc Love program to see if it can help me and will follow the scoring guidelines on here.

 

While I may have expressed a positive experience above, I think the negative experience here outweighs that and don't think the positive experience I mentioned above is any real big deal if I'm left with an intense feeling of bitterness or hatred afterwards, and will just go on a case-by-case scoring platform when I update this thread on February 3rd next year.

 

It's a good thing that there are still some 'good' women in the environment who are nice to me. There is one who is particularly nice who is married. Oh well, I've hugged her a few times in my office and she always has something positive to say to me. She's really getting through to me and I like to think about her if I'm feeling down sometimes.

[Luke Skywalker]

Being emersed in philosophical thought, the whole range of experiences are subject to challenge. For example, you either have a straight line, or you have a wavy line where one part goes high and the other part goes low. Conceptually, if one is pursuing pleasure, then there is going to be a cost, which represents this wave sort of effect.

 

The past two postings illustrate two completely different states of mind and emotional states. The recent post above is a negative state, while the one preceding that is a positive one. To take it for what it's worth, the price of the pleasure is probably the pain experienced.

 

Now, let's say, that I've gotten what I wanted in terms of pleasure, since this case does have some anomalous aspects to it to my life experience and pursuit of pleasure. I have a girl that's over 90% interested in me, and she appears to be in that state to a week or two. Let's say that during this short time I have a 'girlfriend' experience simply on the high interest level.

 

During this period of time, I experience specific sorts of intimate connections for quite a while. For example, being in the same room (i.e.) home as the girl, having a girl interested in me to go anywhere in the world, long hugs where I can fondle her butt or even slap it. If these are sort of subconscious "pleasure" goals that I have been seeking then they have already been fulfilled here - but without anything going too deep or out of control.

 

So, I think the negative side of it, would effectively be the cost of that brief moment of pleasure. Just like, if you want to use an escort you have to pay for it. When dealing with social dynamics, then a cost could be reflected in other ways. This is causing me to re-think my perspective on this into a more philosophical neutral light and perhaps re-evaluate what role this whole instance plays on the 'green book' and whether perhaps to accept this as something that I wanted and list it as a personal fulfillment anyway, but under the cost of the negative experience posted above this one. This would put some economic perspective into this.

 

I don't think that any pleasure exists devoid of a price-tag of some sort. For example, you don't just have highs all the time when dealing with women, or it would get boring, or it wouldn't be realistic -- there would either be a real or hidden cost somewhere in the equation. Further studying will be done into this, but under this perspective, the negative balances the positive as being the price of the postive experience. Perhaps it's also optimal, since the girl wasn't right for me to start with as she is a single mother and she would not be properly accepted anyway -- so a very nasty crash and burn would ensure I got a share of pleasure but without too much involvement or potentially past a point of no return.

[Luke Skywalker]

Passed. Proceeding to March 3rd, 2009. No complaints. Content with whatever I wrote about before and agree with the prior post.

[Luke Skywalker]

So far, only dates there was a negative average fall through from this thread as follows:

 

October 25, 2006, February 3rd, 2008 and March 3, 2009.