icouldbecathy Posted December 29, 2017 Share Posted December 29, 2017 Hi, I'm 23 and going through my first major breakup from my first love. We went through everything: deaths, infidelity, family disputes, etc. I don't trust him. I haven't for awhile, but I take it out on my friends. My relationship pushed me to be antisocial, afraid of intimacy, and paranoid to all get out. I moved away from my boyfriend causing the breakup, and I have ended up declining in mental health to the point that I texted a VERY close friend of mine who is also close with my ex to not touch him or hook up with him, also explaining that I am in a state of severe paranoia. She never answered. This morning my grandmother died, and I have never felt crazier. I am crazy in my breakup and hurting myself before others can hurt me, and pushing away friends in the process. I have deleted all my social media outlets and sent my friend a text explaining (but not excusing) my odd behavior. I am at a rock bottom. I am jealous and emotionally damaged by my own thoughts about things that haven't happened. I have a high guilt complex that generally takes over my entire life when its in full force. Has anyone else ever done this or felt this neurotic? Does anyone have any advice on how to fix the situation? Please help I'm losing my mind. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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