LonelyJedi Posted May 24, 2017 Author Share Posted May 24, 2017 Today marks 60 days from when our break-up occurred. I am shocked to see my ex's progress (or lack thereof) and my lack of progress. I have been so incredibly hurt & sad after she left. And after I found out about this new BF (I was actively avoiding her), I literally could not breathe. My ex has pushed me over the edge... I have never drank alcohol before, I made that pledge to myself. When I found out about her new BF/rebound, I sunk so low to break that promise to myself and began drinking. I used to be such an emotionally strong person, but she has destroyed me so much that I was prescribed anti-depressants during the day and Xanax for the night. My ex was literally the first thought in my head this morning when I woke up. I did not plan on thinking about her. I literally woke up, turned off my alarm, and she popped into my head. It is like I had no control over it. Rachel, stop haunting me! I need to let you go... I have been sticking to my No Contact well. I have not contacted you since you left on that god awful day, literally two months ago today. Yet you still control my thoughts & feelings. I know that you aren't coming back, it hurts to admit that. After all that we have been through, all of the progress you had made in your life... you still want to throw it all away. Each day is better than the next, but this past Saturday has set me back a lot. It is almost like I am starting from Day #1. Link to comment
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