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  1. I appreciate the feedback and advice. I want to be completely honest and I haven't been doing that in the thread. Yeah, she cheated and had intercourse with other guys, but I cheated too. I didn't cheat as hard as she did meaning she had sex and I got head. Okay, cheating is cheating and there's no justification for it. At the time I was feeling unworthy and she was being distant. I should have seen it coming and I should have just walked away after the first break up a while ago. I'm insecure and whatever is mine is mine. I just didn't like sharing. Now, I'm getting this feeling like I'll never be good enough or I'll be too much. I just don't see the point of even trying.
  2. Sooooooooo, my ex and I broke up 3 months ago and in between those months a bit happened. April, after we come back from a trip to universal studios she announces the break up giving me the "I don't have time for a boyfriend". So we broke up and a couple days later she contacts me after weeks of no contact. She face times me one night and tells me that she cheated on me in the middle of the relationship. This part I don't get, she could have just broken up with me instead of cheating why did she have to wait and why did she still stay after cheating on me. Sounds like she was just stringing me along until she was stable enough on her own. May: I started my new job at the same establishment as my ex. She works at the first location and I work at the second. This one day I worked a morning shift and it was super busy, as I came back from the kitchen to hop on the register and help the next person in line I can see that my ex was in line. I ended up taking her order but was cut short because I had to run to the back. She left a couple of things at that location the one day she worked there and she got them back. That's all I thought she went to my job for. To get her things back. June/July: somewhere in these two months I had a quote on my bio on instagram, "looking for someone to play hide and seek with me and my feelings". This quote was said by cole sprouse, whom I follow on twitter. This is relevant because my ex texted me from a number I did not have saved and at first I didn't know who it was until I saw the picture of my own bio and a couple of responses on my end, the person ended up saying after I asked who this was, "since you got the picture I'm sure u had time to look at it", sure enough it was my ex and she accused me of "Stalking" and "stealing her words" because she had the same quote on her bio on twitter. August: first week of august is always fiestas. The reason for me posting this thread is to vent. Fiestas was the time I met my ex and I've just been feeling lonely lately. Plus, I broke NC and looked at her social media, BUT I did not feel any kind of negative feelings toward her. I went through our old conversations and to be completely honest...looking back at the conversations I saw where I came off as starting to be a douchebag. I could literally see my own mistakes and I'm very upset because I was such an who treated her like the way I would respond. I was going to message her on twitter and explain to her that I'm beginning to see why things didn't work out. But, I said f that I gotta let her do her and I gotta work on myself. Maybe I'll try to reconcile sometime in the future? who knows. Thanks for reading me out And any feedback into me reading between the lines too much or and feedback is welcome.
  3. Do any of you believe in the zodiac signs and astrology stuff you see on social media, mostly on twitter
  4. Just found this forum and I'm glad I did. I'm going throughthe same thing and reading all this makes me feel right at home with people who understand even if it's at the slightest.
  5. I was currently in NC with my ex for a couple of days after breaking it because of my curiosity of how she's doing. A few days later she came into my work which I then took her order. Today, I got a text from a random number with a picture of my profile on instagram. I asked who this was and the person responded back with "u got the picture so u know who it is" I look at the bottom right corner and sure enough it was my ex. I guess she texted me from another number since I blocked her original one basically saying I was stealing her words and stalking her because I posted up a quotation on my bio on IG that she had retweeted on twitter I guess?? I follow cole sprouse whom was the original tweet holder of that quote. I just don't know how to feel so I needed to vent. Any tips on why she would contact me just to say that? lol I'm so confused but I didn't think much of it, she's probably reeling for something and all she's gonna get back is a kick to the face. HAHA
  6. Day 5: broke NC and I made a forum about it as well so. Haha here we go again
  7. If he wants to get back together then he will reach out to you. Do not put yourself through something you might regret later. Start NC now. NC is a great thing. Do not prolong this process.
  8. Don't do it! You've done so well for yourself. I'm back to day 1 and this is day2 of NC. I felt bad that I broke NC so now it's Time to feel better l.
  9. Hi, so I've posted many forums and I'm currently in my 33rd day of NC. Today, I worked a 7-3pm shift at work. Keep in mind that I work in a establishment where there is 2 locations but same establishment. I work at let's call it DG2 and my ex works at DG1. So, today I was working and I was sent to DG1 to pick up some supplies that we ran out of at DG2 and when I got into the car on my way down there I wasn't thinking anything negative like "oh I hope I don't see her" because I want to mature and I didn't mind seeing her what I did mind if a conversation occurred because that. Anyways, as I walked into the restaurant I turn into the door way and I saw her, the back of her head, I looked at her and looked away. I did pass her but I didn't think anything of it and from the rest of the time I was there I just focused on what I went there for. Let the record show that when I laid my eyes on her ALL the memories came back to me and hit me. Then it stopped hitting me when I got back to DG2, I went on my break and started to watch this video I came across on FB talking about the laws of attraction and now I'm just chillin about to smoke a blunt with the boys. I feel better now. I posted everything before this sentence as a new thread to vent, but now I'm posting it on here to get some feedback of my actions and if this day breaks my 33 days of NC.
  10. Hi, so I've posted many forums and I'm currently in my 33rd day of NC. Today, I worked a 7-3pm shift at work. Keep in mind that I work in a establishment where there is 2 locations but same establishment. I work at let's call it DG2 and my ex works at DG1. So, today I was working and I was sent to DG1 to pick up some supplies that we ran out of at DG2 and when I got into the car on my way down there I wasn't thinking anything negative like "oh I hope I don't see her" because I want to mature and I didn't mind seeing her what I did mind if a conversation occurred because that. Anyways, as I walked into the restaurant I turn into the door way and I saw her, the back of her head, I looked at her and looked away. I did pass her but I didn't think anything of it and from the rest of the time I was there I just focused on what I went there for. Let the record show that when I laid my eyes on her ALL the memories came back to me and hit me. Then it stopped hitting me when I got back to DG2, I went on my break and started to watch this video I came across on FB talking about the laws of attraction and now I'm just chillin about to smoke a blunt with the boys. I feel better now.
  11. Day 26: things are so surreal. I still can't believe we don't talk anymore. 30 days and I don't feel as attached anymore, yeah I still think about you, but yeah, you're just a memory now.
  12. Day 24: morning, currently 10:41am where I am at. Just woke up an hour ago, smoked a bowl and relaxed. That's been my routine for the last couple of weeks. Have been working 5 days a week. I've been feeling good physically, stil working out, but I do still eat like crap. So, OPERATION: eat better is a go starting this morning. Have a better day people!
  13. Day 18: Woke up feeling sad and lonely. Had a dream about my ex as if I was still trying to get confrontation and closure out of her. Have been feeling lonely for a couple days now. I miss the companionship, I miss having someone to hold and spoil. Miss the intimacy and having someone to talk to everyday. I guess I don't miss her but I miss it.
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