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[surfjon]

Baby,

Today is really hard, seems each day is a little different, some good mostly bad.

I feel like I was good to you and loved you dearly.

It was nice to spend Sunday nite with you, but I explained how I feel and that until you knew what you wanted, I would not be contacting you. It's hard as anything I've ever done, but I must.

 

Hope your day is good, I love you.....

 

Jon

[Tom1990]

I'm tired of not being your boyfriend anymore. We miss each other, we care about each other, we have fun together, and we work well together. So dammit girl, tell me why you had to break up with me because I figured it out, and yes, it was another misunderstanding. So admit you want me back so I can tell you NO, you have to work to prove to me you really want me back.

[Emma8]

Havent been on here a while. Guess its getting easier without you. I miss you and I do love you. Some days are harder than others, but I dont cry as much anymore. I dont hurt as much anymore.

 

Its been nearly 6 months without you. I dont know what will happen in the future for either of us. But I do now I am getting stronger. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel and right now, that is all I need to get through this.

 

Youll always have a special place in my heart, despite how you treated me. I know you regret it, I know you love me and I know you miss me, but I also know it wasnt meant to be.....hard to say that, but I know its true. Some things arent meant to last....x

[kittykitty]

I miss you so damn much tonight

[and86]

cant sleep.....guess why. I have now ignored two messages from you.......it aint easy believe me.

[Love1336]

Lol. I am NEVER, ever BREAKING NC until the DAY I die.

Yup. Pretty much.

I know what I was expecting. I know. I am grow up.

It hurts, but at least I got the answer.

 

Now I gotta worry about me.

[einsteins_girl]

I hate you so much right now. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hope these feelings of hate overpower every other feeling I've ever felt for you because I want to hold onto them forever.

[KT7777]

had a another great day! even though its hard but NC is best for the both of us maybe one day we can be friends or whatever but right now. i'm looking out for me and what makes me happy! love you and the baby ttyl

[Mayforce]

Honey, I can't stop missing you everyday even you were being so mean/ironic/such coward at the end. I didn't see any place for me in your life. I didn't want to pretend like couple. I could have and we might be still together now. I don't want our love so fake.

 

I don't understand why you still wanna give me souvenir with my left-over stuff. Why you wanna be nice after said goodbye. Why couldn't you do this while we were together? You'd said you didn't realize how much you loved me after we said goodbye @ our first breakup. You are in your holiday and I am here, facing the screen with tear over my face.

 

I've tried to stay strong, being alone with myself, trying find website like here or free chatting room so my yearning for you have somewhere to flow to, not to blow off my head.

 

Sometimes I feel a bit better, but most of time, just sad-cry-tire-numb-thinking-sleep, going this loop over and over. I've lost quite a lot of hair due to the poor sleeping quality and depression. I am taking some vit-zinq to help. It also reminds me that you'd bought me some before we broke up. We do care about each other. But so many missing communication and some bad luck, we know we both had been lost in some time points. Now, it's hard for either side to walk together on one/your path.

 

We'd made so much effort being together but so shame we didn't make it at the end. Ppl say thing happens for a reason, just it comes now or later. They also said it's better it comes now. Maybe, there'd be other options for our story if we didn't miss those timing and talks. But there is no ' if ' as there is no ' backward ' or ' delete ' keys in life. We only can move forward and maybe one day our path will cross again. Hope it will be right timing and we both are in right position.

 

Yesterday, my head was full of those stupid things you did and said, and felt regret that I was being too nice at the end to you. I felt I should give you some hard lessons to know how selfish/mean you were and to appreciate me more.

 

I don't know if true love means I should cry in front of you, argue with you, and stay with you that day but I chose not to drop off any tear, spoke to you in calm voice and turned my face around. If my love were strong enough, should I put my pride down to beg or ignore your cold attitude? Is it because I don't love you enough, so I left otherwise no matter what I still could show you my one-side-love... even I wanted more love from you.

 

True love is staying together even one side is ignoring you or true love is to leave and let both be with other ppl and miss each other ?

 

It seems there are many ways to define it. Maybe when I get older, I will live with caring anybody thinking, just yours and mine.

 

You are the first one and perhaps will be the only one who played 'wishbone' game with me and you always gave me the most tender part of chicken in my plate.

From now every time I eat the chicken, I would think of you from that and it will be me to do that to my next partner.

 

I wonder when you have Asian cuisine, will they remind you of me, too? The soup dish, the rice dish, the noodle dish, the dumpling, the hot pot, the stewed, the stir fry.... etc. You said you are used to my cooking, my seasoning. You said I have good idea and sense about deco the house. That's why you waited for me to finish the place. You like me because we both like to eat healthy and like cooking. You said we both are nice and humble people. I think that 'you' is gone.

 

Anyway, I am tired from speaking alone and it's my sleeping time now. I live in irregular time. Soon my BD is coming. This should be my stop-point to enter next mode. I didn't play any game but just made too much loop in my head blocking myself. I gave myself too much rules. I am sorry I only can use what I've learnt on next one now.

 

I still will write to you later. We should be okay to speak to each other now, no? Sleep well, mon cheri. 我還是很想你的.

[Doc Blaze]

Well...not gonna lie this is hard but yesterday was the first day i didnt cry. It seems like the more i stay around friends the more i slowly start to forget about you. Its lonely in the apartment without you. Our kitten everytime he hears car keys out in the hallway he runs to the door like he did when you would come over. I feel like he knows because he has been cuddling and staying around me a lot more the past nights. Right before bed and right when i wake up are he worst but mornings suck even more. Its like someone is killing me in the same spot every morning in my chest. I wake up im happy then i start to remember we arent together and your not coming back. I just wanted to know why you why you become so cold to me before we broke up Like i didnt deserve to be treated that way. I was there for you everytime you struggled. I was there last summer when all your friends turned on you and you would cry. I held you. I took care of you. and for it to end like this even though it was probably best hurts a lot more because you were not just my gf but my best friend and now we cant even communicate anymore right now because were both so hurt right now. I still believe you really dont even know why you broke up with me. i feel like you still care a lot about what your friends have to think..about partying living free..i knew it was coming by the way you started drinking and how all your friends were becoming single..i knew it wouldnt be long before it was our time.Because of my past relationships being cheatied on etc, it was hard for me to put my heart out like that and i told you that from day when..i fell too hard too quick i believe we both did...its just you gave me back my heart broken in a million pieces.Like i told you before you left, this is going to be the hardest break up to get over..you were every special to me and i dont know where we went wrong or what sparked you to turn into such a like it wasnt even just to me it was to all your friends . They way you treated them lately was horrible. I know we all go through tough times but you cant treat people like that in life.idk i just miss you falling alseep in my arms and me watching tv and being like i love this girl..cant look back now, you made your decision and thats how things go in life..i guess life isnt fair and was never ment to be.

[DumpedAgain]

I just thinking about how when everyone always says..... when it's right, it's easy. But you always say it's not going to work because it's too easy... That's how dumb you are.

[Mayforce]

sounds like me! lol I didn't see any guy who made effort as much as my ex so when he did those, I started questioning myself... why he is so nice ... I didn't know this kind of thing would happen to me... but no worry, your ex would be like me, would figure it out after.... It could happen... if your ex was like me...

 

but sorry, we didn't mean to just...still learning.

 

 

I just thinking about how when everyone always says..... when it's right, it's easy. But you always say it's not going to work because it's too easy... That's how dumb you are.

[Love1336]

I miss you.

[Zohariel]

Finding it really hard to let it go.

[brokenheart13]

I miss you so much. I miss your smile. I miss your laugh. I miss the way you used to look at me. I miss the way you made me feel. I miss everthing about you. I guess what it comes down to is, I still love you.

[annejulahh]

Today is day three of not talking to you. I broke down the on day three last week too but this time, this time I have to stay strong.

 

Blocking your statues' has been working well. I've creeped on them today and then I went to her page. Now, I am happy she and I aren't friends. This rage stirred up in me for about two seconds and then I came to this to write out how I feel. On the other hand, I'm really glad that you can't see my stuff either, you'd constantly be asking me what's wrong and all that other stuff. So, it's both good and bad. Augh, I've struggling with that kind of thinking; the middle ground.

 

You've tried to talk to me twice. I appreciate that but I don't think it would be good for me. I don't know about you, but I know it wouldn't be good for me. But, I have no idea how heartfelt that was. . . which gets me thinking a lot of thoughts that I don't want to think like you caring about me and if it's forced or not. You do seem to pick up hints now, so that's a good thing.

 

I was really missing you today. But, I have not given into your . . . ability to make me surrender to you, if that makes any sense. I've been looking at other guys which makes me remember that I need to work on me but that flirting is okay. And I was telling my friend how I was missing you and how this third day is hard, and she told me that if I complain tomorrow, then she will say the 5th day is hard. Which is true: Everyday it get's harder and easier. I just have to get over this hump.

 

And in case you're wondering, no, I don't want you back. If anything, I want to be physical. But, I can't do the emotional stuff with you, it takes too much of a tole on me and I'm pretty sure it's the same for you. I'm not one of those girls that is going to sit around waiting for you, I know we're not meant to be but I do miss things but I'm finding that distractions are good and not being in contact with you is even better. I also want you to know that I don't hate you or anything, the break up needed to happen, it just didn't go so well for me but, now, now I'm growing up a little bit and seeing that there are more guys than you.

 

But, I can't tell you this, I still care about you. But still in a not caring way.

And that is something you will never understand.

[jenmarroquin]

I hate that you broke up with me yet you moved into the spare room to spare my feelings. I cant stand that you seem fine and then tell me your devastated. I hate you for crying when I asked you to move out because it's killing me. I can't get over us if your here texting and talking to me caring saying you still love me... YOU BROKE UP WITH ME!!! You don't get to cry

[ANuBeginning]

Today's just been a bad day. I miss you and i HATE that i always will.

[Allyjane]

I guess you are ok. I still think of you every single day. I wonder how long I will do that for. We have so many memories that it doesn't seem I can do anything that you and I did not do together. I wish we could go for a bike trip together. Now mine is on the road and spring is here.... we had so many plans. If I could turn back the clock... would we still be together I wonder!

I know that you think I am seeing someone else... truth is that we are only talking on the phone. Nothing else has happened. He is a nice guy though and I know it is selfish but if this helps me get over you... then so be it.

I keep thinking the worst of you.... it helps alot to remind myself of all the things I hated about you, how selfish you are and how cold you turned out to be.

I know you think of me.... but I guess just not enough.

[Mayforce]

I just had a dream....and I think it's a sign to remind me of what mistake I'd made .... the mistake was when I saw something, I would assume 'you should know, see, understand' that, too, just as I did...... but the fact is, we assumed the other one would think exactly as us and thought/waited for the other one to say to us first, such as:

 

After a weekend staying in your parent's place and looking after your niece and newborn nephew, we were driving back home. When we looked after the kids, I got a feeing that your family left them to us on purpose to see how we worked it out together or how I felt about it (like kids or doing well).

 

Anyway, we started talking about the trip, the children then we talked about our childhood in the car. I was talking about mine, and said my skin is quite white for asian, even I am whiter than him (my ex-french). And you (my ex) was driving and paused a sec, then replied... "yes, that's why I chose you ah~"

 

I can tell that we both felt your family let us look after the children on purpose, more or less, and we talked about our childhood in the car, the children, more or less like testing each other's mind on these things. My saying and your reply were showing we didn't mind or were thinking of the same thing. But we just stopped there. I was waiting for you to go on to say.. our baby would be... blablabla... ; and later very late (after we broke up), you told me you were not sure if I was thinking the same as him.

 

Gee.......... something like this, we kept doing in these years, in friend's wedding, talking.. I thought you should know and would talk about this when you were ready; you thought I would talk about it; if not, I was not thinking of it. BUT, WE BOTH were thinking those things and ALSO WAITED THE OTHER to say it.

 

We got angry after the timing passed... how come you didn't do this? how come you told me this till now? Till the last minute, we finally told each other, we were thinking the same thing as well but by then, we felt more pissed off more than happy.

 

sigh~ assumption, expectation, pride, arrogant, prejudice, laziness, .... they are matters but also if our love were strong enough, we would forgive each other... and work it on .. apparently, one of us or both of us, didn't love that strong...

 

We did have chance or we still would have chance but you think of yourself so perfect... which means you don't feel you need to make any change/effort/step back and I felt why only me making effort alone in OUR relationship. It should be both side, not one side.

 

Anyway, I was missing you but now I feel not that missing you. save my time, back to my TV.

[Stoof]

Get out of my head!

[soybeans]

I really want you back. I would give anything to just see you in front of me, one more embrace. Anything at all.

 

But it won't happen.

[jimmyc]

I love you so much! and would do anything to have you back,

but you need time and space to figure it all out,,i dont want to just have what we had i want to have so much more with you!!

[Mayforce]

once again, I cry again as the pouring rain outside... is it bad to cry on birthday? who cares if crying is the process of healing, if it can keep me away from you further... I really don't mind. Even I didn't tell you my plan about our future, you should know I love you so much! You could tell or ask me again about our future since I love you so much, but you didn't, just gave up. So you don't love me that much at all. I didn't waste your time. It's you wasted our time! At the end, you still tried to blame all the faults on me! you coward!

[jooj]

I hate you