DumpedAgain

Some people will never be fulfilled. Maybe you are one of those people. All this time, I loved you and accepted you for what you are. For me that is a beautiful thing... But maybe you aren't like me. Maybe that's not enough you. Maybe we are too different. Maybe, maybe, maybe..... all the maybes in the world come down to this one.... Maybe ending this is the best thing. Sure, I love you but I won't always. you will fade if I just let you.

I just thinking about how when everyone always says..... when it's right, it's easy. But you always say it's not going to work because it's too easy... That's how dumb you are.

Some days I miss you more than others. Sometimes I don't miss you at all but I miss Lisa and M. I want to talk to you and tell you about things that are happening in my life. Like the creepy letter I got and the trip to peurto rico. this break up has been hard for me. I bounce back and forth between thinking you are the coldest person in the world like your * * * * * father and I am actually lucky that you ended it... then I think about the f'd up way you ended it, how unsupportive and selfish you are. The contradictions in those last few conversations. Did you meet someone else? How could you just dump me... Was it the cancer scare? And I can never forgive you for doing this when I really needed you. You are just so so weak and lame.... Maybe you just don't have it in you to be strong, kind and loving. Maybe you are just a * * * * * like your dad. And I fortunately will not have to live the life like your poor mother. I didn't deserve this * * * * .... I really didn't. I was so good to you and I am a really good girl. You break my heart.

I miss you... but I deserve better. I am embarrassed and ashamed of the way you treated me. That isn't love.... your version of love sucks. I hope I meet someone new soon and move on... Cause my life isn't about you anymore.