BronzedSkin123 Posted July 9, 2008 Share Posted July 9, 2008 I truly do. I grew up with both of my parents. Sometimes, I wish I lived in a single parent home. My father's love is totally conditional, he is only happy for you when you get ahold of some money and that only lasts until he spends it or for a day or so. And if you accomplish something he is in good spirits with you momentarily. Nothing really helps, father's day baloons or cards don't really do any justice. I could have saved my money on father's day because I wasn't going to get him anything. But my mother encouraged me to buy him something, so I did it. What a waste. I was one of the kids who was there every birthday and holliday to buy him a gift while my older two brothers never get him anything. I know I am not perfect and that my life could be more on track but I am working towards it. I got accepted into nursing school and if I do well and graduate I can leave this house. My father has wanted me gone since I was 18-20. I remember him saying he couldn't wait until I got married and left home at 20 years old. If it was up to him, he'd have me quit college and work at a department store 40 hours a week on welfare. At one point both my mother and father were encouraging me to quit school and become a manager at walmart so I can get my own place. I think my mother in particular has something wrong with her she may be bipolar. Now that I am older I defintely sense that something is mentally wrong with her behavior. I recently started a new job and showed my mother my paycheck, it appears that my paycheck should be more than what it is...fine I'll take care of it when I get around to it. No, my mother calls me up on my cell phone discussing my hours and how many days I went to work that week, and asks me if I will talk to my boss. I said, "yeah". I know why my hours are a bit short, but when I get a chance I'll still talk to my boss about it. This morning before I even got a chance to get my day started she starts again stressing me out about the paycheck...asking me if I called the woman. I lied to her and said yeah. Mainly because my mother goes into these emotional rants and rages about things that don't concern her. She acts as if MY LIFE is HERS. She asks me what the woman said and I remained silent. I didn't want to tell her that I haven't called her yet. She realizes that I asn't telling the truth and snatches the keys off of my dresser and takes the keys to the house away from me, saying I don't deserve a key to the house. I fight with her to get them back and she says that if I scartch her she will beat the hell out of me. She goes into these crazy rages. Eventually she gives me the keys back after she calms down. I am so sick of this, I am getting closer and closer to entering nursing school and the program is a year. I PRAY that I do well because I need to get out of this environment so badly. the funny thing is, is that as much as my mother sometimes tells me that i need to be more independent, she will turn around and say that she doesn't want me to leave. I truly think she gets gratification out of chastising me and putting me down all the time like I am a child. Link to comment
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