So what am I scared about?
That he will think I'm too skinny and unattractive and that will be it.
This is all so crazy. We knew each other in high school (30 yrs. ago!) and now we're been writing by email for about 2 months. I saw web pix of him from our 30th reunion and told him he looked great. Things kinda took off from there.
He wanted pictures of me, and I reluctanly sent him one. I looked much better in high school, and I think he still sees me like that. I'm very thin and unattractive, (as in flat allover)but I sent the pictures and he told me I looked ok.
But he occasionally refers to how foxy I was back then instead of how I really look now, and that worries me.
Yea, I do have a big self image problem.
He lives in texas and I'm in missouri, and he travels a lot with his job.
Now we are planning to meet halfway between the two states TOMORROW and I am scared to death!
I'm so worried that he will look at me and think, ugh what happened and that will be it -- instant rejection.
Today I drafted an email, telling him the visit was off because I didn't want to repulse him, and I cried writing the whole thing, but I didn't send it.
Men don't like skinny women with flat chests (even though he is thin, too) and that's me.
what should I do? GO and risk getting rejected or just back out now before I make a total fool out of myself???
Thanks, you would think at 48 years old I could figure this crap out, but obviously I can't.