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hope so!!

wow great poems!! thanks for the help i really enjoyed it i will try hard to fight back to this addiction and one day i will be in your place helping people like you are now. i go to this website that helps revoerying addicts if you wanted to check it out link removed

lol yeah it is a good sign i guess..thanks for your reply!!

this is definitly my poem. and i definitly wrote it about me and how i feel. i actually wrote this a couple weeks ago and are just now posting it. my thoughts still the same and the addiction is kiking harder and harder i would love to read some of your poems on it too its great to be able to share!

one day without meth is a living hell but it beats sitting in jail my bodys so tense my heart is so sore and all i want is for someone to give me more Why does my body contradict my brain why can't i think straight so i can stay sane! I have all this help around and i still cant deal i dont belong here thats how i feel Maybe one day I'll pick up a blade press hard on my wrist and my life will fade On my vein is pressure my whole wrist is sore I gasp as i see a gapin wound and a blood-drenched floor i feel weak as it runs out of me the meth demon was here it wouldnt let me be As my life is still hangin on i think what was so terribly wrong? I wish to myself Nobody else will sing my sad song. I feel my life slipping away as i slowly hit my knees I see the trees blowing and feel a gentle breeze I hear a screan from so very far they grab my lifeless body and put me in a car Rushing, Rushing, Rushing everythings so fast everything ever good is now in the past I hear a doctor and the only thing he said was Ma'amim sorry but she's dead How could i do this to everyone who had so much love i wish they knew Im flying Im now as free as a dove my body no longer fiends and aches i no longer get sweats or the shakes I feel so good im all free from meth that demon whore who brought me to my death All my life my pain was self-inflicted all because i was addicted But that first day I had 2 decisions i caused the sleepless nights and the scary visions The creepy sounds and the smoke all around look at me now im nowhere to be found mommy and daddy i wish i could pay you back for the money i stole to get me a sack and the pain ive caused i know what you went thro wasnt so great but kno the things i did was not out of hate I was just blind by how far i was I wish i could remember by my mind is fuzz Im sorry to everyone I hurt or stole from Just so that I- I always had some Im sorry to myself for not quitting for good but the addiction doesnt let you do what you should I hope you know before you dare dont try it ever cause tina dont kare! cuz shell hold u in with such great power shell kill your soul and make you sour look at me now only a empty soul meth left me empty and stuck in a hole Dont think you are different no matter how many people bitchin about how it wont hurt you cuz theres no fighting back to addiction!

wow thank everyone for all the advise..i am still spotting...i figured it would go away or get heavier into a period but it has not. yes, i am younger than 18 i was not planning on having a child but im still worried about it if i am pregnant. i have most all of the symptoms you named. i will have to see a doctor or something soon. thank you for everything!

i have miss 2 periods.. and i have had all the symptoms of being pregnant and everything i even FEEL pregnant which is probably not the best sign but stil.. today when i went to the bathroom i found little spots like it was not ALOT like when you usually start but very small spots of blood or w/e...is that my period or what is happening?? am i still pregnant?? please help if you have any info on this!! im REALLY worried!

you know i dont even think that he wants the sex or if he is even looking for a relationship he could have just been being nice. Maybe he wants a good friendship that could lead to more in the future i really dont know what he thinks or how he feels about the whole thing i dont even know if he knows that i have feelings for him..maybe one day ill get up the guts to talk to him..

thats very true..i am not sure if he does or not. only time will tell that he seems to be pretty attached to me tho seemings he invites me over and he picks me up(he lives about 30 mins away) and takes me home and everything buys me all kinds of shit.. but i may just be mistaking niceness with flirting..and oh, his child is his stepchild not biological the girl he was with had a baby while they were together and he fell in love with her so he still considers her his!

the pains u get can be from alot of things. cervical cancer to cist on the ovaries maybe u should go see a doctor..i have missed 2 periods so far and i need to take a test because unfortunately i have been smoking and drinking and doing drugs again which is in no way healthy for me OR the kid!!...i havent really thought about my decision since i really dont know if im pregnant or not...u should really get off the birthcontrol if u think u are pregnant..i got pregnant on it and i kept taking it i stopped taking it a week before i had my miscarriage..i believe that is what killed it..since then i have not taken one single bc pill again!! so be careful go get a doctors approvial before trying it!

sorry thats *22 yr old!

i love your poem made me feel really good.. i am 15 and me and this 2 yr old is like talking i guess..we are not together or madly in love like the poem but still it hits home..great poem your very talented writer!

ive been with older guys than me and actually i have never been with anyone my age before and me and him are pretty good friends, he has a daughter, shes cool. yeah, i do think hes looking for a life mate but he always says age is but a number..so i think that his intentions are good..i just dont want to be look down upon for dating someone almost 7 yrs older than me...or people look down upon him..is it worth is if they do?

is 15 and 22 that bad?..him being 22 about to be 23 and you being 15 and in a couple months 16?!

being a recovering addict myself i figured i would put it up to show people what it is like and how horrible the drug actually is!

this is a poem about a drug addiction. reply with comments good or bad. i was just trying to get my point accross there really isnt any hidden meaning in my poem. Remember me, your bestfriend meth! Hello everyone my names Tina or jib, glass, crank, ice, or meth I am your very bestfriend, promise We'll be bestfriends till death We will chill everyday and stay up together at night We will be together always and never have a fight cuz I'll be here when *beep* goes down I'll always be here for you Are you believing all this? good, thats what I want you to do Gain all your trust be dependent on me and when your tired of TinA I won't ever let you be Your head will never be clear your heart will be ice you wont ever be the same you wont love or be nice You are now my victim Im so glad you couldn't see There is only one way out and your life is my fee I know you loved me How could i lie? But i didnt Dear Friend I told you I'd be here till you die So your laying on your deathbed Smoking your meth cursing my name cause im bring you death Nobody will come to your funeral Nobody cares People tried to help you but now nobody dares You beat up your mom stole from your dad your life is all mine now isn't it sad? You killed your wife and unborn kid initially you killed yourself that is exactly what you did I seduced you with my sparkles and kept you with addicted every word was lies it was all fiction I dont love you at all I want to see you die your life is but one of the many who cry your not special to me not in any way your so doped up that in your own bed you can't lay soon they'll come and repo your *beep* but you'll still have me you know what ive done here? you still dont see?? I know you love me but I need to leave you alone i left you penniless not even a phone I'll leave you be for awhile you'll come running back they always do just trying to score a 20 sack And then I'll be with you your bestfriend once more your heart hurts and your body's sore Until one day I take your veins you take the needle and push it in I know your Christian and this is a sin I'll run through your veins with such a wild pace I'll smile and laugh all in your face Your mine all mine I'll be with you till death remember my name im your bestfriend, Meth your bodies racing and your head feels high you feel the greatest rush and then you die your heart explodes all in your chest you were so good you were one of my best! When you die it's not heaven you see It's burning flames of hell and of cource, ME I forgot to tell you remember me, i was the thing you was datin besides meth and tina, my names also satin!

THANK you Jim!! that was really sweet!!...im a female i would want myne smaller if i had to chose. but if i really had to chose i wish it wouldnt really matter and every guy would jsut look into their eyes becuz WE ARE HUMANS!! we dont look at your penis's to decide if we want you or not so dont decide by our breasts!!

ok, wow...both of yall have such good points..now im really confused...becuase both make so much sense get him and his gf feels awful and then not get him and me feel awfull....which is better??.....i have a feeling the answer is clear im jsut blind to it.

you really cant help how you feel you can help your actions but not your emotions. Just think about it if your boyfriend was to tell you that the girl he used to mess with messedwith his bestfriend andthat he was really hurt by that, how would you feel? i suggest just letting it be there isnt anythign else to do if you want to keep your man. Just keep your mind on how much you actually like ur boyfriend and how much you liked the other guy. I suggest no more games, it sucks when people play games with you why would u want to do it to somebody else and have it back fire on you like this time!

i dont know if i can 'just' be friends with him hes just too apealing for me. i dont think i can jsut watch him be with her.its either all or nothing at this point for me maybe its best to leave it at nothing..

i really shouldnt go for him i know..thats bad...but i feel so drawn to him..i guess its nature want what u cant have i wanna respect his girlfriend but in another way i want to just say the hell with her..i dont know shes not my friend she has never made an effort to be nice to me. but i know i know. karma is a bitch. i guess ill wait it out see where it goes

his gf would be PISSED..i would hate to be her if i ended taking him from her..lol..i dont even know her she could be really cool and they seem to have a good thing going i dont wanna be resposible for breaking that up but i REALLY like hiM!!

i am really confuesed..i have this guy in one of my classes...hes so kute. and i really am crushing him hard which is weird cuz he is like my age when i usually date like 2-6 yrs above my age. so this is a good thing for me. and the first couple days i was like hell yeha i really liek him then BAM his girlfriend is in our class and i didnt know it they dont act all bf/gf like i dont know i guess they do now that i know but he just makes me feel like he likes me. i could be wrong but i think he likes me too i dont know should i make a move? i dont want to do the wrong thing here that would be terribly embarrasing!

i think it does.. i wouldnt push it tho considering she does have a boyfriend..wait until she breaks up with him and then you can be all over her lol.. im in the same situation i like this guy who has a gf...sucks huh!?!

i left out a lil bit of the story..i have miss 2 periods so i ThInK im pregnant..i had been using quite an amount of drugs in my first month of pregnancy. when i missed my first period and the thought that i may be pregnant crossed my mind i quite the drugs, drinking, and smoking cig. i dont do anything to hurt my child i am afraid that already my baby could be damaged becuase in the first few months of development it is the most important. So if i was to give my baby up for adoption it may have some complications. I dont know if i could live with myself to have to hand MY bad choice to someone else but also i dont know if i could have an abortion it would just kill me inside taking another life, but i am struggle to get thro school much less a regular child but a child with a disability...i just couldnt do it..