Don't be so hard on yourself, who cares what others think?
I'm sure you are just fine the way you are, is NO reason to get implants!! natural is much better.
Even if you can't find the right person for you right now you'll find him (guessin not a her ) someday, I finally found my soulmate in a place/person i NEVER thought i'd have a chance with... so keep on chillin, take it easy...
/ramble off