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  1. agreed. Thanks a bunch for your advice. 3:36 and believe it or not I gotta get up in a couple hours, so Im calling it a night. Thanks again
  2. I dont necessary agree. I found that my ex had a very colorful past to, and as a result of this I got cheated on 3 times. Believe it or not im still consodiring giving this a second shot with her, but i noticed shes extremly sexual, and she looks at sex as an "essential" part of life.
  3. This is normal. Remember in elementery school they used to punch pillows and such to get out ur anger? this is a direct result. I am actually considoring taking boxing classes!!
  4. I used to never be able to cry, even when I wanted to try to get it out. I found that after my first true breakup with a girl i was truly in love with, its like something openeed up inside me, and I pretty much cry randomly now. Its an extremly weird occurrence for me, but this could be a direct result of a depression state im in.
  5. My life has been compltely crazy since last year. As a recap, I fell deeply in love with my ex girlfriend right before I went off for college. I came back for her 8 months later only to be financially cut off from all college from that point on. At the time I didnt really care cause I was in love and I felt safe with her. Well to my astonishment she broke up with me for another guy and I had my heart ripped apart for the first time in my life. For a month or two i was suicidal and didnt leave my room and was just a complete wreck. I started dating around and found out that I can have fun, but I feel nothing anymore. Its like my brain is in a daze even 6 months later. I have had complete self confidence issues since I was little. I have exzema and I think I look way to young for my age. I been going to the gym, got a job, and believe it or not Got my financial backing for college reinstated (UCF by the way). So eveyrthing should be great. I also have a great girlfriend, but my ex depserately wants me back, and i been seeing her and talking to her a lot. She is the one girl i truly have feelings for. I just dont know if all the issues could ever be settled. I should be happy and feel like my life has meaning now, but i feel compltely useless, depressed, and meaningless. I have felt this way since the beggining of high school, and in high school I found myself being depressed all the time as being an outcast. Im sorry for venting guys, I just wanted any suggestions or opinions on ways to try to kickstart my mind into a postitive thinking mode, and not get caught up in the drama of my relationships and the fog that is invading my brain.
  6. The thing is, I dont want to deal with highschool people, and I believe thats probally the only age group around here, because theres no college or anything.
  7. For the first time in my life, even though I have been through countless moments of depression and loneliness, I dont want to go on. I have never been social, and I never had many friends. In May, I found a wonderful girl, and she fell in love with me. I went away to college 400 miles away, but we kept up our long distance relationship and we were very close. I dropped out of college to move back to be with her, because nothing was more important than the way she made me feel. I had no friends back here, because they all went away. Well, she broke up with me after I came back, and immediately got another guy. I have been siting in my room for 2 weeks, and im a complete mess. I live with my mom right now, and I dont have any friends left, and the love of my life is with another man right now, and hates talking to me. The worse part is, I cant go back to college right now because i got cut off financially because I moved back. This has been the lowest point of my life, and I feel like I just want to not go on anymore. Everything I do reminds me of my ex, everything I see, and I just want to be in her arms again. But she hates me and adores this new guy. She always claimed she loved me and would be my soulmate forever, but one day she just let me go. I feel so absolutely miserable without her, and I keep thinking of her giving her love and sex to this other guy. Everything hurts so bad and it isnt going away. I never cry, and this whole week my eyes have just been tearing 24/7. I dont know if I can do this.
  8. I was just wondering what the best way to go about getting someone back if they found someone else, literally right after she broke up with me, but still misses me and cries over me. She says he treats her better than I did, but all I want is a chance to show her how good I can treat her, what do I do to win her back?
  9. well i found out shes with another guy, and it got pretty heated, she obviously has no more feelings for me and is defending the hell out of him. I just want to get my * * * * back but she blocked me on everything.
  10. well Im really going to do lc now, because i think she needs to know ims til there. I talked to her yesterday and she asked if i was moving back to florida. I said why, and she said I shouldnt run away from us and the situation... She said i failed the test because I told her she was the love of my life but now im just gonna run away again. I told her I cant wait forever even though i love you with all my heart. She told me It would be a month or a few at the most. We also talked about dating other people, and I said a) she falls for guys easily and B) I couldnt wait while she dated other people. She told me that I would date to which I cant right now.. and it goes both ways. I know there is this other guy, and I want to try this relationship again because of what we did have. o she also said that it was her way of finding out if I really thought she was my soulmate (me not running away to florida back to school)
  11. my first post can be found here After talking to her, and being nice i figured out a few things maybe u guys can give me advice on. She told a mutual friend of both of us she still loves me, but cant be with me right now. She told me After we both get our lives straightened out.. school, work, etc.. we can try again. I asked her today if she thinks that 1 day we might have a chance again, and she said yes i do. She also thinks we should date other people make sure we want to be with each other.. is this the truth or just a lie? She is hanging a lot with her guy friend who has a thing for her. She told me he could probally treat her better than I did, but she doesnt know cause they are 2 much alike. I think shes confident that maybe in the future she will want to give us a try again. Is my best bet to go NC and try to let her miss me and work on myself, or keep talking to her and acting like a friend?
  12. i already pushed to hard, we had a long talk this morning and we didnt argue, but then i noticed she is hanging with this guy a lot. He is falling for her, and she is taking the bait im pretty sure. Its like back to square 1, a punch in my chest. i guess im just gonna do nc now
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