lilcityshrty
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yea i havent posted in a while.. but i have a favor to ask all of you. can soem one write me a poem about whats going on with me live-in "boyfriend" so to speak. email me or pm me and ill fill you in on the details if your willing.
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me and my boyfriend of a year jsut broke up about a month ago but became completely offical last night. does anyone ahve any poems or such of feeling alone and deserted? no so much about what he did to me or the ill always love him and stuff. but more so alone in the world i wish i was dead kinda stuff. i jsut feel really crappy right now and i need to read things so i know as to what im feeling is "normal" and that others have the same feelings. -thanks
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Not being able to move on...
lilcityshrty replied to esboogie143's topic in Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend Relationships
im in your situation to an extent but one thing ive learned is that everyone is right you really cant keep doing this to yourself because nothing good will ever come of it. also the reason why you keep doing this and going back is because ppl want what they cant have. thats you in a sense. you want him and the realtionship and all he wants is a booty call every now and again. jsut elt it go i know its hard. but in the end all you really do and ever will have is yourself. thats it. no one not even a family member can come close to what special bond you ahve with yourself. so forget him its his lose not yours. -
today was better betwen us. he was acting like nothign ever happened. i dont get it. when we were talking last night the only thing he took back was the i lvoe you part. not the youre really special to me aprt or the im nothing without you part. jsut the i love you. but he was nasty to me about it but calm about everything else. its like before when he would be all nasty to me its like his defense mechanism for i dont want to talk about it or im not admiting how i feel or something to that extent. is that good?
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we broke up about a month ago maybe less. today we finally said our words. he admidated to using me / playing me out. it hurt but it was something i needed to hear in order to have closure. he said the "i love you" bit was jsut the right time to say it. and he said he really meant that i was special to him and what not. it still hurts. but it doesnt. now my fear is seeing him with other girls. i dont think ill be able to do it. what will make it go away. if i post a pic of myself will you let me knwo what everyone thinks (i.e. hot or not?) he told me i was ugly and all that icky break up stuff when he said the i love you thing it was b.s. he used his lying voice but the rest of the talk he was normal. how should i take that?
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my boyfriend of a year jsut broke up with me. i want to reamin friends but i dont know how? help. please before something horrible happens.
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i think you should go to the movie store and rent the movies "thriteen" and "kids". watch them and think about how important youre friends are to you, your health, and your safety, none the less possibly your life. really consider if you are ready or not, do it because it feels right to you and not your friends. you can only have this memory/experience once. make it last. youre still a baby. you have a while before you have to grow up and become an adult. its a big responsiblity. dont let it fool you. life isnt what it seems. but to at least be un bias to the topic. i agree lots of forplay. use a condom. the come lubed. have it be nice and slow. but most importantly have it be all about you (well at least 75% of it anyway.) good luck. use your head.
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i said he WOULDN'T continue to let me give him oral. i do understand that loving someone and beng in love with them are different. but i just dont understand why someone would say that for no reason though. like for instance about a week ago he climbed into bed gave me a kiss said i love you and went to sleep. nothing happened and nothing has happened between us. idk maybe it me. maybe im doing something wrong for him to keep pulling away like this. its liek we get so close and take everything a step further and then he pulls away and sometimes picks a fight with me or does/says things to the extent to wear he knows im gonna pick a fight with him. know what i mean? but i did like your comment on "maybe he loves the way you give him oral or the way you helped him puke". that was an awsome comment. really it was.
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he told me like 2 days after that when he was sick. we were sitting in my bathroom cause he thought he was gonna throw up. and he hugged me and was like i love you. and he would say it everynight before we went to sleep even if sex wasnt involved.
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2 weeks ago my b/f said i love you for about a week or 2. then after him and my sister got into a fight 2 days later after that i said "do you still love me?" he replys "as a friend". does this mean??? does he want to take it back??? the first time he said i love you was while i was giving him a b.j. he explained all the bad stuff he was telling ppl. about me and why it was said. he told me i was special to him. he didnt know where he would be with out me. and wouldnt let me continue giving him oral. he said he just wanted to go to sleep and hold me in his arms. FOR GODS SAKE HE DELT WITH BLUE BALLS FOR @ DAYS BECAUSE OF THIS. PLEASE HELP??
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no i have never been abused like that... to my knowledge at least but i have had alot of guys make me feel like im nothing. i was just a fling thing kinda deal. its not everytime that i feel crappy like that... just sometimes. i feel kinda sick like a heavy feeling in my stomach. but sometimes i feel like i just wanna cry like i get depressed and what not. the guy im with now its only happened like 2 or 3 times with him and thats after like a month of him treating me kinda crappy and then we "make up" and have sex and then things will resume to how they were before... like nothing ever happened. could that be why?
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to me a climax is different for say.... climax: somewhat of a "little orgasim" orgasim: whoa!!! climax x's 10 i dont know but when i cum/climax/orgasim its like my legs and feet get all warm and tingly like when your legs & feet fall asleep and the blood starts to go back into them and circulate. and i shiver and such. sorry tmi but yea thats what i experience but then sometimes i feel all that and i also feel like complete and utter disgust with myself and i feel sick to my stomach. is that normal too?
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i think i might have orgasim before but i think it was more of a climax than an orgasim. how do i know or not?
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ive had sex for about 2-2 1/2 hours with my man but thats after multiple orgasims and postion changing. we would start out he would cum then we would change postions. then he would cum. then change postions once again. so on and so forth. we never stopped through out the whole thing. it all has to do with stamina and how often you have sex. we never have sex so when we doit, its for a long time. plus he just lost his virginity to me about 9 months ago so his stamina is still fresh. so thereforeeee it all depends on the guy. and the girl. so your friend might not be lying but its prolly a good chance. only cause most guys cant get past a hour max.
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you dont need lube and with out it if done right it wont just be painful tugging. my ex bf said that it hurt when i did it to him but thats because i wasnt doing it right. guys do this to themselves almost everyday. sometimes more than once a day. so if it doesnt hurt them then why was i hurting them?? some guys do need a lube but some dont. i learned how to do it on my current boyfriend because he told me how to go about it and he said it was so amazing that i did it better than himself. i know thats a weird thing to ask your man, "hey how do i give you a hand job?" but actually when you ask them how they want to be pleased some might find it arousing like my man did. i went to go do it to him and he said "ouch!" so then i got discouraged and hes like here put your hand like this and go like this while holding my hand and "demonstrating". try that... if that doesnt work... then oh well his loss not yours.