Jeffie

I've never posted anything here for you all to read so, here ya go. One of my better ones, and means a lot to me. Budding first In a Springs widowed moonlight It endured the dusks And dawns of many Not lost through the sleets Nor through monsoons Poised now elder and astute By the changing of seasons. With stillness, open faced to the brightness, Exposed and abreast to naught. Letting its tender sepals Drink the warmth of a dying sun. Falling from grace With sadness dropping its petals one by one The stock, soon to follow All coming to rest upon the dirt, frozen in darkness Laying atop the solemn ground They slowly wither To be scattered away By a silent tempest. Time shall pass with days and nights Holding nothing but memory Of midsummer blooms for passers by And for one, Glows of sunlight A divine redolence Viewed afresh only in a reminiscence of a few. Beneath the loam Still resting in pieces Cloaked in earth, its shattered pith Solely in remembrance of the sweet blossoms of old That will be breathless, just beyond

Yes right now I live at home. It seemed the best time to 'give it a try' I would rather struggle getting by now when I can fall back on my parents if I didnt make it. But I have made everypayment for every bill I have had so far. I wouldnt want to risk that when I was older, married, maybey had a kid or two. Even with one person working while another spouse tries their hand at starting a business is risky, you are only surviving on one income until the business is off the ground. Like I have said I have loved every minute of putting these businesses together. My latest try is showing the furthest a long and most successful of what I have tried. It is diffictult because there is no training like when you get a job that explains how you are suposed to do your job, nore is there managers or administrators that you can go to with questions. I like the challenge.

I quit my job back in February because I cannot stand working for someone else, it just doesnt make sense to me to get paid if I do well, or if I do a bad job... anyway whole other issue. I have about $425 in bills I need to pay each month with my car, insurance, gas, and cell phone. I have been able to make all these payments, some months it was a little close. All from small odd jobs I have done. I have been using this time away from work to do what I really want to do...run my own business. The majority of what I have tried has failed, though I understand I am not going to make millions, even thousands or hundreds right off the bat. It takes time to find what works. Though I am feeling pressure from friends family and my girlfriend to get a job, and also pressure from my self to keep a cash flow coming in, and so I dont need to worry how I will be making my car payment this month or something else. But when ever I have 'worked' on a business idea I have never really considered it work because I love doing it. I just wish I had some guidance or a mentor to help me along the way. What do you think should I get a job? or continue making it my way? Thanks! Jeff

As far as saving money goes... There is a part in the bool "The Richest Man in Babylon" that says to ALWAYS pay your self first. It is your money you should have it. Take 10% of what ever you make and put it into savings. If you make $20 of something take at least 10% and save it. You will learn to live on less than you make, while saving. take that for what you will. Good luck in all that you do.

hahaha! I told, her, yes I didnt want to tell her because I was embarrassed (sp?) went a lot better than I had expected. Thanks everyone for the help (and the scare at the beginning: )

im 19 and she is 18

just to let you all know, Im not trying to fight responsibility and blow it off, 1 I am emberaased that it happened, and 2, I am scared (now) of what possibly could happen. I will tell her

Physically I am probably old enough, but mentaly I am not. I honestly never thought that bumping and grinding would bring me to orgasm.

I very highly doubt that because I was straddling her leg, and once I started to orgasm I moved, and sat up.

Today I stopped by my gfs house before I went to work. we ended up making out on her bed. We then started levi-lovin' we have done this before nothing new. but this time i guess I got a little more into it, and ended up having an orgasm, imediatly after i got up said that I had to go (i was already a few min late) and was making every effort not to let her see the wet mark on my pants. I'm sure she knew I was acting weird I started heading out of her room without my key and shoes. she had to remind me to get them. Do I pretend this didnt happen? or explain why I was acting the way I was? she hasnt brought anything up....but I kind of feel the need to tell her, I'm just afraid of how she will take it. Thanks for the advice

ugh, im doing it again, its 11 I just got home from work about a half hour ago, talked to my parents and girlfriend. I am just very edgy and have a very short fuse and at the same time I am pretty depressed. but I dont know what about. could there possibly be hormones or chemicals out of balance with me?

Thanks for all the input, those are all awesome suggestions. Im really not doing much at the moment, school doesnt start till next mon, and I am sick of my job. I did just put a bike on layaway because I love to bik, but I still have a ways to go before I pay it off.

i think if you had a qustion on if ejaculating is when you orgasm, tantra may be just a bit to advanced for ya

I don't know what it is but lately I have been on an emotional rollercoaster. I will be fine, and then the smallest things will set me off either angry or depressed. for an example.... I work for Wells Fargo in collections, I used to always treat the customers with great respect, and truly tried to help the person i was dealing with, but lately I have found my self being much less understanding on the phone and being sarcastic with them. I come home, and just want to be by myself, althought I want to be with someone...if that makes sense. Its almost like there are some chemicals out of whack in my sustem because I can be talking with my girlfriend on the phone and she will ask me whats wrong because I really enjoy talking with her, but I am very quiet on the phone with her. I dont get it.

Much easier said than done.