Loveyougirrl Posted November 19, 2017 Share Posted November 19, 2017 We were in love and really cared for each other. Everything felt perfect. A sudden fight and she brought up an issue(family) close to my heart. In the heat of the moment, I said let's break up and she went home crying. Next day I suggested we be friends. She said yes, though initially she was suggesting 2 months of no contact. Secretly I thought we’d sought things out and get back, but even I was unsure, so didn't mention that. It's been 20 days since. And her silence has killed me. After the first 4 days, when I thought I was okay breaking up with her, her silence started killing me. I thought I had hurt her really bad and now I silently wanted her to be back too. But I wasn't sure. For days I tried contacting her (to apologize but wasnt getting a chance to), but she kept ignoring me. The only things she messaged were “I need space to heal, please leave me alone. I still think and speak highly of you”. I was like “I know, let's just talk once. I have only nice things to say. I wish you all the best. I want to express my feelings.” She kept ignoring. I emailed a lot of good things, followed them up with an email 3 days later why she wouldn't even talk once after the breakup talk, and that it was really harsh given the connection I felt with her. I commented on the Google photos album she had for us and said if she had moved on then just delete the album, so that I don't keep hanging on the edge as to what to expect. She ignored that too. I started drinking with friends and the second week, ended up drunk texting her twice(mean things like if she ever loved me and how much I loved her and was ready to solve my family ). First time I apologized to her for my drunk texts, telling her that her silence was making me crazy. Second time, I just blocked her. She started remaining online all day for the next 5 days(blocking her still showed me and her when we were online). She would like all my best-girl-friend’s posts. It started confusing me, because she never did that before. Suddenly on the 6th day, she announced that next month she's going on a holiday abroad. Last night, she deleted our Google photos album and hasn't been online since(after being online full day for consecutive 6 days). Has she moved on or is just mad that I blocked her and didn't honor her space? I just don't know, because she hasn't been communicating at all. I keep coming up with theories that maybe in her head. I am going to be in no contact for the next 10 days, before I reach out to her again. I feel I have anyway pushed her a lot through one sided communication. Should I just stop and move on? I feel ghosted. Link to comment
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