Broke NC after 3 weeks, I had to but now feel miserable

[IAmFCA]

She has messaged me only through FB messenger or Viber, so she will know if I block her.

 

Then delete the messenger and viper apps for now.

[bbogdanov]

So what?

 

So she will find out that you have healthy boundaries and that you value your own well-being.

 

Where is the negative in that?

 

I assume the ONLY reason you are refusing to block her is you're hoping she'll contact you wanting to reconcile. Do I have that correct?

 

I think I feel guilty of all the pain I caused her through the years. I am now maybe trying to compensate for it somehow, by being kind or something like that. I don't refuse to block her because of hope. If you asked me that question a couple of months ago - the answer would be different. But now I am in the last stages of moving on (that's how I feel it, I may be wrong) and don't keep much hope (if any). I don't want to block her as I think it would be some kind of an insult to her (if she finds out) but at the same time I REALLY hope she doesn't contact me.

[bbogdanov]

Then delete the messenger and viper apps for now.

 

I can't live without them I am a heavy FB user and even without the apps on my phone - I spend hours a day browsing FB through the PC.

[boltnrun]

I can't live without them I am a heavy FB user and even without the apps on my phone - I spend hours a day browsing FB through the PC.

 

So dramatic!

 

Do you think people died off before social media was invented?

 

You will not die!!! I promise.

[bbogdanov]

Of course I won't But I communicate with many other people via FB/Viber, so I won't stop doing that because of my ex. Never mind, that was not the point...