I HATE my family and would not be sad if they died

[ThatwasThen]

I regret every single thing that I said. My father took his own life because of me. It is most likely that even if him and I had somehow reconciled, he still would have committed suicide. Granted, we had our issues, but this really is terrible. Things get put into perspective fast when something like this happens. I don't see myself living too much longer. That's not to say that I am considering suicide myself. But, I have pretty much given up. The very person who brought me into this world is gone because of me. I don't deserve anymore life.

Your father did not kill himself because of you. He killed himself because of him.

 

 

Do yourself the loving thing and get to your doctor for a referral to a therapist. You really need to talk this out with someone that can help you to form the tools you need to forgive yourself for this misplaced guilt.

[Seraphim]

Honey, you are not at fault. ❤️