Youngbird Posted February 12, 2017 Share Posted February 12, 2017 Me and my now exboyfriend were everything to eachother. We were eachothers best friend, support, lovers, shoulder to cry on, you name it.. But 1 1/2 month ago, we broke up. We were together for almost two years, and the relationship was filled with love and trust and we had (have) a deep connection. I never imagined that it would end. I saw my future with him, and I know he saw one with me. But we are young. I'm 20 and he is 18. I think we got too close too soon. He felt so much pressure in the end. The reason that we broke up is because of pressure from work/school on both of us. I got depressed and at one point we stopped communicating. The last month or so I was irritated at him because I thought he took me for granted, but I realise now that it was me that took him for granted. I feel so bad and would do anything to change the last months we were together, but I can't. I have apologised to him and he knows that I have realised my mistakes and I have learned from them. I will never let my negative thoughts ruin me again. I am more conscious in my mood and can tell myself when I'm acting stupid. I working on myself everyday to become a more independed and confident girl. We ended on good terms. I have been doing NC/LC ever since. He has texted me a few times to ask me how I was doing and I texted him once a few days ago to ask him how he (and his dog) was. We actually had a nice conversation. When we broke up he told me that his feelings had changed when I was almost constantly in a bad mood, making him feel guilty. I can't blame him for that. But he said he didn't want to loose me, because he cares about me and he knows how much I have done for him. I respected his feelings and I understand were he is coming from. I wish it didn't end, but it was the only option at the time. He had given up on us getting better. I'm giving him space, because that is what he needs. Space to be free and act his age. He is the nicest guy I know and he is so scrupulous. I love him so much. I have always thought that we are ment to be. I hope so intensly that we will find eachother again. Our love was so strong, but we got too invested in eachother and strangled the relationship. I lost myself and I'm now finding myself again. So is he. When we meet again I want him to see the change in me. I have met his mother (the wisest person I know), and she said that she sees a spark in my eyes that she has not seen in a while. I do feel much stronger, but it still a long way to go. I'm still learning to love and trust myself. Can someone give me some advice? In getting stronger? Please don't just tell me to move on. I know that I have to. I have read alot of Getting back together stories on this site, and it has really helped. And sorry about my english, it is not my first language. Link to comment
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