Srednap Posted December 31, 2012 Share Posted December 31, 2012 Day 2: I'm feeling good actually, had a good dream. Last day of 2012.. I wish everyone a happy new year!!! I always believe what's meant to be will be! So stay strong everyone! Link to comment
LostSoulTrain Posted December 31, 2012 Share Posted December 31, 2012 Day 8 I woke up again thinking of her. The anger inside of me is diminishing. I am now sad that she did not want to fight for us. Thoughts going back to last year. So much energy I invested in this relationship and for what? It turns out that it was practically for nothing. Link to comment
pettypink Posted December 31, 2012 Share Posted December 31, 2012 Day 10. I feel like crap. He just got back from his vacation and I haven't heard from him. I suppose that's normal right? Tonight would have been a very special date for us if we were still together and I KNOW he won't contact me and it breaks my heart. Link to comment
Snow93 Posted December 31, 2012 Share Posted December 31, 2012 Day 6. I'm feeling pretty good today. Better than I have since I restarted this challenge. My resolve to start focussing on getting back into shape and study harder has helped me structure my days without her and I'm feeling quite proud of myself. I'm happy to be ending 2012 on a positive note as it was, for the most part, a great year for me and by far the one where I really feel like I've grown a lot. Link to comment
IAmFCA Posted December 31, 2012 Share Posted December 31, 2012 Day 10. And except for that little email exchange, it would be 13 or so. If it weren't for counting on ENA, I wouldn't even know how many days. Glad to have done this before. Its amazing how much easier it is. It is also amazing how much I grow each time. His purpose in my life was to remind me that its not just mad skills I require, also I require being cherished by my partner. A bi-lateral cherish festival. Link to comment
Brittanyxox90 Posted December 31, 2012 Share Posted December 31, 2012 I don't even remember what day I'm on 40-42 or something? Truthfully the only reason I am thinking of him is because it's NYE and this time last year (and the year before) we were together, and I wonder what he is doing. Then I remember, that I don't care. ...that much. :sigh: Happy New Years. Link to comment
LostSoulTrain Posted January 1, 2013 Share Posted January 1, 2013 Day 9 We did not even wish Happy NY to each other. I think of her less than on previous days. Still, a part of me hopes that this is only a bad dream and that all we've been through was not waste of time. I somehow cannot believe that we will not end up being together. Link to comment
Srednap Posted January 1, 2013 Share Posted January 1, 2013 Day 3: All right, I admit I have been feeling a bit blue today.. I miss him.. But so what? Time will tell! Link to comment
IAmFCA Posted January 1, 2013 Share Posted January 1, 2013 Day 11. My girls talk about him. But I am still okay. Am ready for this new year. Link to comment
Snow93 Posted January 1, 2013 Share Posted January 1, 2013 Day 7. About a quarter of the way through now, well today was pretty good. I don't know what it is, maybe it's the new year and the idea of a fresh start or maybe I'm just getting used to structuring my days without her once again. I've been enjoying a couple of new videogames I got for Christmas and they've been keeping my mind off things aswell as being a blast (Heavy Rain and Catherine for whoever might be wondering haha). Apart fro that, studying still eating up a lot of my time. I don't really have much time to think about her. So pretty good today. Link to comment
IAmFCA Posted January 2, 2013 Share Posted January 2, 2013 Still Day 11. I know I won't contact him but I really want to all of a sudden. As I write this I imagine his voice on the other end of the line. Nope, that is not a safe place. OK. Keep remembering that he has retreated. remember, remember.... Link to comment
KatieL Posted January 2, 2013 Share Posted January 2, 2013 Day 1. I was originally on a week of no contact, but each time a week passed we spoke to each other. Well, he has a new girlfriend (hoping the rebound...) so hopefully itll be easier to do no contact. I just need the strength to not look at his social media. Thats my problem. Let's see how it goes. Link to comment
LostSoulTrain Posted January 2, 2013 Share Posted January 2, 2013 Day 10 I woke up with thoughts of her again. Every day I am feeling less angry and more missing her. Yet, I have no urge to contact. Link to comment
IAmFCA Posted January 2, 2013 Share Posted January 2, 2013 Day 12. A little distracted but not too much. I do wonder what he is thinking. But not too much. Link to comment
brooke2012 Posted January 2, 2013 Share Posted January 2, 2013 I accept the NC challenge Day 1. Wondering what have I done and questioning my decision regarding ending the relationship. Trying to recall and remember if I told him everything that I wanted him to know. Did I tell him that I love him, did I tell him I wanted a commitment, did I tell him how wonderful I would be for him and then I realized yes I told him all of this during the course of 5 months but obviously it wasn't enough to cherish and respect me or commit to me. I tried NC for a week before and he scheduled an out of town trip and joined the gym. I caved in but he didn't Link to comment
Snow93 Posted January 3, 2013 Share Posted January 3, 2013 Day 8. Meh, nothing to report really. I feel okay, missed her a little. Seeing some old spots we've been too, other than that I've been okay. Link to comment
Marshall11 Posted January 3, 2013 Share Posted January 3, 2013 Day 4 of NC after 4 weeks of bad contact and meeting up since BU.He broke to say he loves me on NYE. struggling so much, and the more time goes on the more I panic he will move on. Link to comment
Dee011 Posted January 3, 2013 Share Posted January 3, 2013 Just found this thread and wanted to join in the challenge. Hope y'all don't mind. It's been almost 3 months since we broke up, but I've responded to occasional contact from him. So, today is day 13 of NC. Feeling ok at the moment. Still think about him most of the day. Link to comment
LostSoulTrain Posted January 3, 2013 Share Posted January 3, 2013 Day 11 Woke up again thinking about her. As days go by without contact the feeling that this is definite end and that she turned her back on us is becoming stronger and stronger. And it hurts. Link to comment
Ammieg Posted January 3, 2013 Share Posted January 3, 2013 Right, for the third time i'm back to day 1. *cries* I can do this, I know I can! Had to be a little harsh with him and tell him where to go. He just would not leave me alone, despite me being clear I needed space he kept calling and texting, so I asked him to leave my life completely. It's the only way although its not what I want. I can't believe he dumped me yet won't leave me alone! God my head feels messed up right now. He's playing such horrible mind games Here's to reaching a happier place 30 days from now. Link to comment
Snow93 Posted January 3, 2013 Share Posted January 3, 2013 Day 9. Bad. Terrible. I woke up thinking about her again and that's never a good start. She's been popping into my thoughts all day and all the old feelings or misery and anger are coming back for her turning her back on us. I honestly wanted to send her a message telling her how I honestly hate what she's become. I hate that she changed from the sweet caring girl who was loyal, strong and felt that a kiss should be saved for that special someone. Now she's this vain shadow of herself who only cares about instant gratification and random hook ups whilst getting drunk and clearly felt less love for me as my love for her grew. That's all she is now, a shadow of her former self. I miss the old her. Link to comment
pixel clouds Posted January 3, 2013 Share Posted January 3, 2013 Broke NC *again* to wish my ex a Happy New Year, so here I am starting again... Day 2 Cried a little and feel a little sad, still haven't accepted it and it feels a bit like the whole relationship was a dream. Link to comment
Srednap Posted January 3, 2013 Share Posted January 3, 2013 Day 5: Mmmm I had a bad dream... I think I'm jut scared he won't come home. I love him and want him to be happy, so whatever he decides to do in the end, I trust it's for the best. I miss him. Link to comment
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