I'm starting again. Day 2 now. I couldn't even go 2 days before because he would break and get in touch. We were getting somewhere, spending time together but it was too soon and we were both clinging onto the old negatives.
It's obvious we love each other deeply but we have hurt each other and tore away at our love. In doing at least a week NC now because we were meant to be meeting up next weekend to see what the break had taught us. I don't know if that will go ahead because we got so involved last weekend and tensions are high but I hope the next week and a bit gives me strength.
Living life each day, in our home, with Our daughter gets more painful each day, not easier. I can't bear the thought of you going 'home' to your mums house and not here. I can't stand the thought of sleeping without you for the rest of my life. Or never seeing your face close to mine. I'm doing this NC so I can be a better person, so I can love you unconditionally and give you the space you need.
