peanutbutterandjelly Posted October 25, 2009 Share Posted October 25, 2009 Day 2 update... well, our mutual friend has not emailed me or texted me back. Shortly after i posted in this thread, i contacted another mutual friend looking for support... and she's hasn't emailed me back either. i'm hoping it's because its the weekend and everyone is busy and they are not ignoring me. im kinda surprised that he hasnt tried to call me today. i figured he would but i should have known better. i almost gave into the urge to call him but came on here instead. Link to comment
HeavyD Posted October 25, 2009 Share Posted October 25, 2009 Day 17. Been doing pretty well lately. I used to think the only reason I was doing well in school last semester was because she kept me motivated. Midterms were this week, and I was expecting the worst. I got the grades to my first one back on friday... Highest grade out of 44 students in the class THAT felt pretty darn good I must say. Link to comment
peanutbutterandjelly Posted October 26, 2009 Share Posted October 26, 2009 Day 2 update AGAIN: E-mailed/texted another mutual friend of ours just to talk (instead of contacting my ex) a little over 2 hours ago and she hasnt responded to me either maybe everyone is happy that he finally left me? I feel so lonely. Link to comment
MNmike Posted October 26, 2009 Share Posted October 26, 2009 Day 20 Not calling her though. I think shes still seeing someone. Not sure, not going to check her facebook status, which she made sure I'd see before. When i feel better, I'll call her to see how she is. After all she was like a best friend. I really miss that. I need to get to the point that I don't really care if shes available or not. Cause if she was single now, I know we could reconnect. She was calling me, and missing me, and being needy (and she left me) until she met this guy to boost her ego again. It was games for a couple of weeks. And she wanted to still communicate. I said no if shes seeing someone. I'll get better, and maybe we'll be friends, or more. For now still NC. Its hard, but its the only way. Keep on keepin on people. Link to comment
OneBrightStar Posted October 26, 2009 Share Posted October 26, 2009 You're constantly on my mine ... six days since you last contacted me .... six days since I last contacted you ... Why can't you see I am the woman you need and want? =( Link to comment
Strawbridge Posted October 26, 2009 Share Posted October 26, 2009 Day 8 I can't stand this constant thinking about you when I'm probably not even entering your thoughts. I want to check your FB profile sooooo bad just to see pics of you again, but i know this will just set me back. Why can't you just see how great a guy I am. There was something between us, what happened to that? Link to comment
peanutbutterandjelly Posted October 26, 2009 Share Posted October 26, 2009 Day 3.... very early in day 3, but day 3 none the less. after 2 days of not crying i just completely broke down again. I feel sick to my stomach. I feel like I can't breathe. I just wish it was a week ago, before he broke up with me. last monday was the last day we spent together.... and i didnt see anything coming. before this i just wanted to call him and beg him to take me back.... but right now i just want to yell at him for hurting me so badly. i hate myself right now. Link to comment
eikal Posted October 26, 2009 Share Posted October 26, 2009 day umm 15 16 17 somewhere in there. i'm not really in NC i just don't have a reason to talk to her and im doing good! chin up everybody Link to comment
stargirl1980 Posted October 26, 2009 Share Posted October 26, 2009 Day 22 Yay, closer and closer to 30 days! Link to comment
Ashsun87 Posted October 26, 2009 Share Posted October 26, 2009 day 1... changed my number and deleted her off facebook. NC forever. Link to comment
peanutbutterandjelly Posted October 26, 2009 Share Posted October 26, 2009 middle of day 3. i still hate myself. the first 2 days were okay and now i am completely crashing. Link to comment
Mustachio Posted October 26, 2009 Share Posted October 26, 2009 Wow, I guess today is day 28... crazy. Dont have too much to say different. I miss her, I still have feelings for her, but its definitely easier now not to pick up the phone and call. Moving on with my life is both good and sad at the same time. woops only day 27 Link to comment
peanutbutterandjelly Posted October 26, 2009 Share Posted October 26, 2009 Day 3 update... so i saw my ex on my website. I am the owner of a forum and he is a member there and i saw him lurking on there but he didn't post anything. i dont even know what to do in that situation. he has a lot of friends on there... WHY DOES HE HAVE TO DO THIS TO ME????? Link to comment
peanutbutterandjelly Posted October 26, 2009 Share Posted October 26, 2009 well i deactivated my facebook account... hopefully that will make it easier. im kinda worried because that was pretty much how i contacted my friends... but they have my number. Link to comment
Nappyloxs Posted October 26, 2009 Share Posted October 26, 2009 This is Day 1. Again another attempt. This time I hope it is easier. My last letter to her explained everything I have thought about. I know now that there is nothing else I can do but move forward with my life. Still miss her and want her to comeback. But I have accepted that she may never comeback, I have no control over it, and all I can do now is live MY life. Link to comment
peanutbutterandjelly Posted October 27, 2009 Share Posted October 27, 2009 uggg, i want to call him sooo badly right now. must. not. call. i should just try to go to bed... last night i was up til 4 am the and night before i was up til 6:30. even though im super tired, i cant sleep. my thoughts just go crazy and swirl around in my head and keep me awake. Link to comment
moyno85 Posted October 27, 2009 Share Posted October 27, 2009 been 3 weeks NC. was doing ok. starting to get over it. not even really think about it all that much. today, like an idiot I decided to google her name at work. First thing that came up was a promo photo of her and her new boyfriend who are in the same string quartet. Turns out they have been touring together for the past 2 weeks. made me feel sick and dizzy. awesome..... that set me back. kick. in. the. guts. Link to comment
stargirl1980 Posted October 27, 2009 Share Posted October 27, 2009 Day 23 Getting there. Link to comment
SadAndDepresse Posted October 27, 2009 Share Posted October 27, 2009 Day 1 - Starting my NC today.. i am sick of feeling this way I have never been so low and this depressed in my whole life. I am hiding my phone from myself, changing my MSN password, changing my Facebook password so I can't see any of her updates or have any contact. And not going back for 2 weeks. I am SO over this waiting to hear from my ex.. looking for reconciliation.. playing games and going NC to try and make her miss me.. it's all ****ed up.. i am done. Life is way too short to be like this. I have to see my ex 100% in 2 weeks time she is coming up here for my bestfriends (her cousins) 21st birthday she already has booked tickets (we were long distance for 3 years- broke up 3 weeks ago), she is planning to stay at my house and she made it out as if we were on a "break" until she comes up to talk face to face about it because she needed space and was confused, because I was so needy and dependent on her. I can't wait that long but theres nothing I can do but push her away until then. I cant be just friends with her it's impossible, it's too hard. I am doing this because I keep on stuffing up and calling her and being needy and pushing her away, I'm not doing this for a way to get back with her, but to give it One last chance and keep sane until I get to see her face to face when she is up here and talk things through and from there get my DEFINATE answer. either move on 100% or reconcile. This is it.. wish me luck this feels like the hardest thing I've ever done : ( Link to comment
peanutbutterandjelly Posted October 27, 2009 Share Posted October 27, 2009 Day 4 ... I fall asleep thinking about him, I wake up thinking about him. Link to comment
peanutbutterandjelly Posted October 27, 2009 Share Posted October 27, 2009 i am seriously going crazy Link to comment
Ashsun87 Posted October 27, 2009 Share Posted October 27, 2009 i am seriously going crazy you aren't alone day 2. sucks. woke up feeling like * * * * . still feel like * * * * . i know im doing the right thing, but that doesnt mean it feels good. Link to comment
HeavyD Posted October 27, 2009 Share Posted October 27, 2009 uggg, i want to call him sooo badly right now. must. not. call. i should just try to go to bed... last night i was up til 4 am the and night before i was up til 6:30. even though im super tired, i cant sleep. my thoughts just go crazy and swirl around in my head and keep me awake. You guys have GOT to try and sleep!!! No even kidding, you will literally drive yourself psychotic if your body does not have time to rest. Take some nyquil, workout, go for a run, whatever you have to do to get yourself tired enough to sleep. Link to comment
peanutbutterandjelly Posted October 27, 2009 Share Posted October 27, 2009 im feeling a little better as the day goes on... i feel like im doing the right thing because he asked for some space. As much as i want to break NC i feel like i HAVE to do it at this point. When we first broke up he said that he would probably want to talk in about a week. Of course I kept bothering him and pushing him away for about 3 days but i do believe that he will contact me at some point. When he does, i'm really not sure what im gonna do. Link to comment
coolchick64 Posted October 27, 2009 Share Posted October 27, 2009 When will I learn? Day 3 (again) Link to comment
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