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SadAndDepresse

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  1. Day 7- Broke NC. Feel like absolute * * * * . She started talking to me on facebook asked me if i got her message cant be bothered explaining decided to call her. yes bad mistake yeah.. i just cant type now feeling way to upset dont know what to do. this doesnt even make any sense.. sorry dont know what im doing
  2. Yes I know for a Fact she has been asking other people to call her and she has been messaging other people. Your right the whole reason for our "break" was because I was too needy and all that... she is coming up here in less than 2 weeks anyway so I think I will continue NC until then and talk things through face to face. No need to ruin anymore of my chances of reconciliation by pushing her further away with needy calls and texts. The last thing she will expect from me is to be NC with her, maybe it will give her a slap in the face to what she had
  3. Day 4- So tonight was weird... Out of the blue I got a message from her best friend saying hey you how have you been feels like forever since i spoke to you last.. blah blah blah. We are friends, but we barely text each other, I have no credit, so I didn't bother replying. Then 1 hour later my ex texts me this is my first contact since my NC from LC 4 days ago. I don't know whether they were together She sent me a picture message with a picture of a layout she had done in her new magazine she just started with this was her first one, it also had text saying "hey you sorry its been a while lots of stress this is my first layout printed in an issue hope you have had a good week xo" But I know she has had time to speak to others... She is just saying this to keep me "happy" or "string" me along, i am almost near certain. Take in mind that this was sent at 10pm on a friday night, so she is probably at home bored alone or with her bestfriend unsure. It's been 2 hours since the message. And there has been nothing more. So confused as to whether to reply or to leave it be, she did not ask any question so this means I don't have to reply, right? If what I believe is true would it be best to continue NC and not reply, and wait for a more useful message/call? Advice please!!
  4. Day 3- Time is going pretty slow.. feels like forever since we have talked. I am so confused as to why she hasn't called me, I'm sure it feels like nothing to her but it is so big to me. Coming up to exams in 2 weeks time just before she comes up, trying to concentrate on study but this means I am stuck at home and hardly any time to see friends because we are all studying, hard to get her off my mind. Wondering if there is any hope in her mind to get back together after this "break" or if there is none, whether I should be still holding out so to speak. Only time will tell, 2 weeks from today until she is here.. Then I will get my answer and either move on or work it out. Let's keep going
  5. Day 2 - Read that interesting post about "being nonchalant".. It inspired me. Let's see how long that lasts. I havn't called or checked facebook/msn or anything, I did check my phone only to see that there was no missed call or message, however but did not make any call or text to her. Still thinking about her tonnes and hoping maybe we can sort this out. Just wondering why I just feel like she doesn't care anymore... I havn't done anything wrong and even after the breakup she seemed to come chasing after me. Now it's like shes disappeared for good. Maybe theres someone else? Other than that.. I am alive and breathing. So everything is good!
  6. Day 1 - Starting my NC today.. i am sick of feeling this way I have never been so low and this depressed in my whole life. I am hiding my phone from myself, changing my MSN password, changing my Facebook password so I can't see any of her updates or have any contact. And not going back for 2 weeks. I am SO over this waiting to hear from my ex.. looking for reconciliation.. playing games and going NC to try and make her miss me.. it's all ****ed up.. i am done. Life is way too short to be like this. I have to see my ex 100% in 2 weeks time she is coming up here for my bestfriends (her cousins) 21st birthday she already has booked tickets (we were long distance for 3 years- broke up 3 weeks ago), she is planning to stay at my house and she made it out as if we were on a "break" until she comes up to talk face to face about it because she needed space and was confused, because I was so needy and dependent on her. I can't wait that long but theres nothing I can do but push her away until then. I cant be just friends with her it's impossible, it's too hard. I am doing this because I keep on stuffing up and calling her and being needy and pushing her away, I'm not doing this for a way to get back with her, but to give it One last chance and keep sane until I get to see her face to face when she is up here and talk things through and from there get my DEFINATE answer. either move on 100% or reconcile. This is it.. wish me luck this feels like the hardest thing I've ever done : (
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