I am currently dealing with a few issues in my relationship of 3 years that I know probably have nothing to do with him, but more of a problem that I have. The guy I am with is completely loyal to me and has proven to be one of the sweetest guys a girl could ever want... I was his first kiss... first dance, first everything...and he was 21!!! I love him with all my heart and couldn't imagine being with anyone else. We are both overweight (but, we are working on it). I am really bothered by my size. I am a size 18 and hate it. I just want to have the perfect body for him, but know that no matter what I do I could never look like the girls in the magazines or on t.v.. Somehow, I became obsessed with watching everything that he does. I'm jealous and it's not because of anything that he's done. He doesn't act like my other friend's boyfriends and watch porn or make rude comments, but I'm worried that he secretly likes to look at models or singers(Britney Spears... Victoria Secret...ect.)He is now 24 and I am 21 and we are both about done with school and looking to get married soon. But, we've been fighting a lot lately because I can't help but think about what he's thinking when he sees these hot girls on t.v. or in a magazine. To take a step towards fixing my problem... I bought him a subscription to Maxim magazine, but it came a few days ago and I went crazy thinking about him looking at those girls. I can't bring myself to give it to him. Is it okay for a one-woman man to look at Maxim? I have a hard time trying to figure out why it's okay for guys to naturally have to look at other girls. But, he doesn't go looking for it. I will actually rent a movie and he'll watch it with me no matter what it is, but as soon as somebody that intimidates me is on the screen I get really upset. He's really into cars and the nude magazines are always next to the car magazines in stores. I know that he doesn't pick them up and look at them, but is a glance in that area wrong? There are car magazines that he would like to buy for the articles, but there will be a girl on the hood of the car on the cover of the magazine and a centerfold poster so he won't buy it, because he's afraid I'll get upset. and I would. Even if he did look at them, is that wrong? Cause I can stand to think about it. I think it is but I need to know if it really is. He assures me that I'm the only one that he would ever think about, but I'm worried that he'll someday dream about having a better body next to him rather than my not so perfect body. what do i do? I know that this is an issue I have with myself and the world around me but how do i fix this. I don't want him to see anybody prettier than me? I want to change, but am pretty hostile toward girls that walk around in skimpy clothes. I would really appreciate any help with this.