Me and my ex were together for 2yrs and 9mths and its been 5weeks that he broke up with me. Im finding it hard and amd just living in hope that if i give him time hell come back to me.
He broke up with me as he doesnt want to be in a realtionship anymore. I understand were hes coming from as we are young and have missed out on things beening together for so long, biut thiswas our first love, im 19 and he 20yrs old.
I asked him whether we have a chance of getting back togther in a few months or so if i give him time and space to sort his head out his reply would bei dont no what i want, there isnt any1 esle he actually wants to be with and loves me to bits.
Bascially he wants to be a lad as be able to do what he wants, we said we'd leave it 2months and see how things were between us then but i couldnt do that i found it hard and have called him 3/4 times and been over to see him at his house 3times too. He says that, thats does help as its making it longer for him to know what he wants. As i guess i arent giving him the time we said we would have from each other.
But the thing is last monday i spoke to him as he said that if were to have meet now that id be the girl he'd wanna marry, id be his wifey as im the sweetest girl as he would have done whatver when younger. But at the moment hes liking the attention hes gettng from girls etc. I respect him for being honest with me as he could have just ate his cake and had it all by cheating on me and still being with me as, but i know he hasnt cheated on me as i said to him you can do what you want if we stay together with whoever as he said no i wouldnt ever do that to you, id hurt myself knowing know much id be hurting you...
But i dont know what to do, i pray every night that in due time we'll get back together but i dont know what to do. Im thinking if i give him time he'll come back to meas he'll realise that beeinig single isnt everything. But it annoys me that he doesnt give me a straight answer about whether there is a chance we could get back together and when i ask him whether he still loves me he doesnt answer what does that mean? Its been 5days now that i havent txted nor called him and im gonna try keep this up until the end of october which is when our 3yr anniversary would have been and im gonna ask him then to give me straight answer as it would have been a month that we have no zero contact. Thats if he doesnt contact me before that or if we bump into each other on nights out at uni. But what do you think hes feeling? do you think hes gonna come running back to me?
I need some advice, hes on my mind everyday and its killing me inside.... what do you think hes feeling?