pashmak

why don't you just ask her why she was ignoring you? maybe she has a decent reason. communicating with her is better than thinking about a bunch of what ifs. she might be a moody person. maybe she really needed that space, you know. maybe she just didn't feel like it. Maybe something personal happened that you don't know about. but whatever it is, you'll never know for sure unless you confront her about it. and I think you're making too much of a big deal out of this and over-analyzing a bit. after all, you've only gone on two dates, so technically she doesn't have any commitment to you to answer all your calls and texts. just talk to her about it. do you like playing games?! because you wanting to "give here a lil taste of her own medicine" sound like you just want to continue on with playing the game (IF she is playing any games).

1. she might have had confused feelings for you at that time because it was obviously some time after her break-up with her ex. you were probably just someone who happened to be right there at that time, so she turned to you. but she got back with her ex, so now she doesn't need to turn to you anymore. that doesn't sound good, but we (both girls and guys) do it all the time after a breakup. 2. I'd like to say that I read random people's journals, sometimes on a regular basis (or people whom I'm acquainted with) and that has nothing to do with wether or not I have feelings for them. sometimes it's just out of boredom...so I wouldn't take it very seriously if I were you.

everyone has a fear of expression because it's not easy to trust someone with all your personal problems. People do take advantage of you and some even make things worse if you pour your heart out to them. so in the end, i guess it's not wanting to get hurt.

you know, I've found going away to college has been the best experience of my life. it gave me a chance to experience things I'd never experience living with my family at home. I have no idea if you go to college, if you plan to go in the future, etc, but if you're not in college now, consider studying somewhere away from home. sorry, I have no tips on traveling because I'm still a poor college kid barely affording classes and books. but it's something I definitely want to do after I graduate and work for a year maybe to save up some money.

previous posts have mentioned this: the problem is that you're studying a subject you hate. Have you ever said to yourself while you were stuck in some stupid class in high school, "I won't have to take no more of this ____(whatever class) in college", "can't wait to get to college to take more of _____(a class you actually like)"? most people have and that's because the point of college is to study something you actually care about. If you hate the sciences, then why are you in it? what classes did you like in high school? WHAT IS YOUR PASSION?? because whatever your passion is, that's where you'll be successfull. my feeling is that you're only studying to be a nurse because you don't want to take a chance at something else that may not have such a clear future. you want to take the safe way, the sure way, so that way you'll never get disappointed. and this is where you're going wrong. Take a chance. study something you love even if you have no idea what's gonna happen to you in a couple of years. Just go with whatever feels right and learn to HAVE CONFIDENCE IN YOURSELF. If you study something you love, you'll dedicate 200% of your time and effort to it, and thereforeeee your chances of failure decrease dramatically. on the other hand, if you study something you hate, you won't put much effort into it, and you will ultimately fail. so, really, think about what you are passionate about. If nothing comes to mind, then that's a red flag telling you you need to get out and discover new things. good luck!

wow, this topic caught my eye because I'm the same way (outgoing and funny when I'm around close friends and family, but shy and not so talkative when around less familiar people). But you know, what surprised me was how you labeled this as a "problem". I never thought it was a "problem" or something that was holding me back from being "myself". Because this is me. It's just the way I am and most people I know are the same way. I'm older than you (19) and I've realized that I'm only shy around people I don't know well because I don't trust them. It's a cruel world out there and soon enough you'll learn that you can't trust everyone with everything. Exposing my real self to them, for me, is hard because I don't trust them. I don't know if this is making any sense to you, but that's how it is for me. I have no problem with people seeing me as a shy person. Being shy on the outside is a sort of shield for me to protect myself. I only let my guards down when I feel like I'm comfortable with trusting that person. And that's when they get to know the real me. but if it really bothers you, then you should definitely keep on trying.