This is regarding to my last post and I ended by saying that I broke up with my b/f of 4 years on Nov. 23 cuz I really though I was starting to have feelings for his cousin, it was from that day I was so stress and kinda cracking and he was giving good advice, he's like that to people, always giving a hand to help, that's wut it made it start this whole thing while my b/f was kinda busy. But, no there never was anything b/w me and his cousin, nothing besides talking on the phone, sometimes kinda a bit flirty and simple hello. But I thought it would lead to more, so I broke up with my b/f that day. Turns out that after the break up, I went single, never got intimate to his cuz, I thought I would, but didn't, I don't really love him, have no real feelings towards him. Anyways, wut I'm feeling now is so much anger towards myself for breaking up with such a great guy, never cheated on me, nor abuse me, nor lie, everything was ok for 4 years. Keep asking myself why, why, why, which makes me more mad. No, till this day he never found out the real reason towards the break up, I just told him that I needed my space and that I had to much trouble and would prollie travel. Yes, he was like devasted, kept telling me to come back, while I just say I can't, dunno if we will ever get back. So, I dunno if it's too late now, to try to work it out again. Is there still hope???