Needy_to_go

I watch porn movies sometimes and I'm a girl, it's kool.

This is regarding to my last post and I ended by saying that I broke up with my b/f of 4 years on Nov. 23 cuz I really though I was starting to have feelings for his cousin, it was from that day I was so stress and kinda cracking and he was giving good advice, he's like that to people, always giving a hand to help, that's wut it made it start this whole thing while my b/f was kinda busy. But, no there never was anything b/w me and his cousin, nothing besides talking on the phone, sometimes kinda a bit flirty and simple hello. But I thought it would lead to more, so I broke up with my b/f that day. Turns out that after the break up, I went single, never got intimate to his cuz, I thought I would, but didn't, I don't really love him, have no real feelings towards him. Anyways, wut I'm feeling now is so much anger towards myself for breaking up with such a great guy, never cheated on me, nor abuse me, nor lie, everything was ok for 4 years. Keep asking myself why, why, why, which makes me more mad. No, till this day he never found out the real reason towards the break up, I just told him that I needed my space and that I had to much trouble and would prollie travel. Yes, he was like devasted, kept telling me to come back, while I just say I can't, dunno if we will ever get back. So, I dunno if it's too late now, to try to work it out again. Is there still hope???

Think, I'm gonna post my thread now

It's ok, u all make mistakes, think I can kinda relate to ur story, I broke up with my 4 year b/f on Nov. 23 cuz I wanted to be with his cuz. But funny thing is after the break up, I didn't went for neither of then, there never was anything more than talking on the phone kinda in a firty way and simple hello with the cuz. So, no I never cheated but the break up was catastrophic and now I keep thiking in my mind "Why, why, if I had 4 years relation, he never cheat, never abuse, never lie, nor disrespect me in either way, always open, yet I break up from feelings I thought I had fro his cuz, turns out, I didn't really. But see, I dunno if it's too late now to ask him again, he doens't know yet, he never found the real reason why I broke up.

Ok I broke up with my b/f just today about 3 hours ago, no, he didn't like it one bit. He kept saying "Why are u doing this to me, wut happened", I told him I needed space and about lots of exams I gotta study". He was kinda devasted, then at one point he say "Did u fall in love with another guy, r u dumping me". Off course I had to say no to that question, but he wans't convince. Then he was like "Ok fine, but we can work it ok, I love you, so if you wanna come around, do so, I'll be waiting". I end up telling him that I love him but that I needed space and call it a break. No, this wans't easy for me, but it's better than going behind his back and hurting him. And yea ratherbesailing, maybe I'll go single for a while, that would be a better chose.

I'm 19 and no, it's not for pleasure, it's emotions I got for his cuz, I've fallen in love withn him ever since that day we had a long talk and he admitted his feelings too, before I did. And AC isn't it better to break up if u wanna be someone else than cheating?

Hey, guess it's a big time party here. Well short story: 4 year relation with b/f and well I've been stress and yea lots of exams also, yes there've been issues, but none of it has to do with cheating, he never once cheated on me nor did I so far, nope. And well there was one time I was so stresses out, was doing to crack and well I told my b/f's cousin about it, he was there to confort me and well this was around 3 1/2 months ago. There was nothing going on, he's just like that, he tends to confort people when they got problems. But see then I think we have started to develop feelings, well he admited it 5 weeks ago. And well thing is I think I'm started or have already fallen in love with him. And yes, yes, I still love my b/f. His cuz and me talked on the phone at times but thats it, though we do talked in a real flirty way, as one would say to a lover, something like that. So I can't be doing this, I know it might prollie lead further, I feel it's going to, wanna break up. Yes this week I have told my b/f about breaking up, he doesn't reallly know the reason (me falling in love with his cuz) and well he's not one bit happy about it, since he beg and beg to stay, fine, but I really wanna split before I get involved further with his cuz, haven't cheated yet and don't want to. Any way I can convince my b/f to break up with me. Yes the bad thing is I still love him, but oh well. So then when I break up then I can be with his cuz. So wut do I tell my b/f, I can't tell "oh i wanna break up cuz I fell in love iwth ur cuz, I can't say that. Any other good reason I can tell him for breaking, any suggestion, he's not going for it.

Yea why ask that? And by the way, I would be gross out.