... Anorexia... Belimiac ( sp? )

This may be a shock to a lot of you guys/girls..

I am actually pretty far into becoming Anarexic.Sad thing is I know it and I actually want to go through with it.Well a great part of me does want it to keep going on but a small part of me wants it to stop.

The Other day I began coming like this... I got kinda bad one day to the point where I only had a bowl of cereal for breakfast and halfa pickle for dinner....Pickle was about 7 calories, cereal was probably 50..

By the way, I am not a girl... I am a guy..I am 18years old..

I haven't worked out recently because I have been depressed but I will start soon again.

I was actually not that bad with my anarexia, but I pretty much wouldn't allow myself to intake more than 200 or 250 calories a day.Now after a huge fight with my dad, his gf, and then my Gf just ended it last night telling me she's going back to her X.. Which pretty much broke my heart into pieces ( I got wayyyy too attached in a short amount of time ).

Anyway,now I have pretty much began the trend... I just ate for the first time since Subday night... and then i threw it up..I hope I'm not beliamic too...

my friend is over here and she just talked to me about how she used to be anorexic.. Well heres something interesting.. I weighed about 165 saturday or friday.. i just weighed myself, 160.. I am 6'2 and have a decent amount of muscle..Imo...

Update- After weighing myself again,156.... from last nights 160..I also noticed greyish hair when i got my hair cut today.

you need to get help. anorexia is a SERIOUS thing. there are so many bad things that can happen. if you are confused about whether or not to go through with it, maybe you should do some research on it to find out the consequences. It seems as though you don't understand it.

Please don't starve yourself as an effort to gain control over your life.

It will get a firm grip on you and soon anorexia and bulimia will be in control.

Please try to change your thinking... get control back by doing healthful and proactive behaviors, not through starvation. You deserve better than the treatment you give yourself. Please believe me. I have tended toward food-obsessive thoughts and behaviors in the past, and I know how important it can become. Don't let it, I'm serious. Get help if you can't do it alone. I know you said a large part of you rather enjoys the feeling (whether emotional or physiological, or both) that results from denying yourself nutrients. This is the manifestation of a larger problem, and one that you may need help overcoming. Don't be ashamed of it, and don't deny that this is indeed a major, and even life-threatening, condition.

Talk to me if you need more help!

I wouldn't know who to go to, its not as though I am extraodinarily skinny for my size..Hell i'm average if anything.. But Still I'm just wondering if I'm gonna be able to stop myself once I get my ideal weight...

I just wanted to add my two cents in and ask if you understand that this is a control issue? Do you know that? Sometimes it helps to look at the reasons of why we do things.

I have never had this problem, but a very close friend of mine did with her daughter. She just about died. By the way, don't starve yourself and then work out, that is what causes the heart attacks. You can not have your body empty of any nutrition and exert it.

This eating thing is what makes you feel like you have some sense of power in your life. that is why it is flaring up so bad right now. Everything seems to be out of control for you. This false sense of control is the method you are using to cope.

If you don't go and get this looked at right now, it will be to late, and you will be in for a world of hurt for a very long time. It is not an easy thing to beat once it sets in. You will be like the junkie with a needle in his arm, saying I don't want to do this anymore.....but keeps doing it. It's insanity. Don't take yourself down that road.

A

I appreciate what you guys are saying but I disagree when you say its a control issue..I have been trying to find different ways to get skinny.. I used Hydroxycut w/ exercuse intially,lost about 20... I used cocaine a month ago and lost prolly 20,25 lbs from that... I got out of that too.. and I'm not getting back into drugs, wouldn't have many friends left if I did I'm sure. And Now here I am,still trying to lose the weight.. Thinkin bout going down to 140, 145..

I'd definitely suggest professional help......talk to your parents, tell them what's going on with you, don't let them find out how upset you are after it's too late......a psychiatrist would be ideal. And there's NO reason to starve yourself!! Granted, depression will cause a loss of appetite generally, but not to this extent.

As far as the bulimia, if you forced yourself to throw up, then yes, that's a bulimic tendency. If it just happened naturally, it was most likely because your body was rejecting food after being starved for so long.

DON'T DO THIS TO YOURSELF. It's not going to do a damn thing but make you that much worse off in the end, I can promise you that. And we here aren't really equipped to give you sound advice on it, except for the "don't do it" thing. None of us wants to see a person hurt so much. Please, PLEASE tell someone you need help, and GET that help, before it turns into a truly dangerous illness. And if you need to talk, we're here for you.

Mar

If what you are saying is true....then fine......it is still a problem that you are going to these lenghts to lose weight. I don't know if you heard yourself, but you said you used cocaine? You don't see anything wrong with that statement?

I would re visit the methods and the lenghts you are going to do lose weight. There are still red flags up all over the place.

Just MY opinion.

A

well coke is actually different..Just one of the big reasons I was doing it was cause of the rapid weight loss, the other reason is because I liked it...

I know this all sounds wrong and I have told some friends...Hell one of my friends threatened to shove the food down my mouth, but she didn't..

I know I have to eat sometime,my other friend told me about her anorexia..I was thinking about trying something small and healthy like a banana or something, but not tonight. I still feel bad from throwing up.

Do you really want help here? It doesn't sound like you are taking to heart what others have shared with you.

Natalia

I'm sorry if I came off as insensitive a post ago... I am just passionate about this issue!

I am a dietitian, that is, a nutrition professional. I know all too well the dangers of eating disorders. And I know that many females and a growing number of males are turning to anorexia, bulimia, and extreme fad diets, pills, exercise regimens, and illegal drugs to accomplish weight loss.

I understand that you don't feel comfortable at your current weight. You don't have to listen to me, but I strongly suggest you go about it the right way: eating a balanced diet with regular exercise. It will take longer, but the results will be more lasting, and you will have changed your lifestyle habits in a positive way. Check out link removed if you need help defining just what a diet that supports weight loss should be.

xox.... Natalia

I came on here for a few reasons.

1) seeking effects of Anorexia, like what can happen 2 you besides hairloss and falling unconscious for not eating for a few days.

And I was also looking for ways to over come it once I get down to an ideal weight.

I do care about what everyone else is saying its just that I can't just drop it..and I also wanted to elaborate for those who are near anorexia.

It is not fun, You get severe cotton mouth and even drinking doesn't cure it.From there you might want to eat a lot of times but you're actually afraid and/or paranoid that if you eat that you will actually gain a lot of weight.. ( Anywhere I go I have to see how many calories are actually in something.. At Burger king near me, they have all their sandwhiches and such listed. ) If I do eat, I try to keep my calories under 100 or 200.. I just half or so of a medium size onion ring from burger king (small is 180 calories, 80 of those are fat cals )....half of a medium is less then a small, so i didn't get much.

Anorexia can also lead to other disorders,In my opinion cannot tell you how bad I want to throw up right now to get rid of this "fat" but i'm trying to keep it in my system.

Please excuse my stubborness if you see it as that..

Can I ask that when you lose the weight that you want to and become the "ideal body shape" what you hope that this will achieve? Do you think you will be more liked, have more friends, be more popular?

Can I ask what you do for fun right now, how many times do you see your friends and what you talk about?

Can I be even cheekier and ask what your sexual preference is?

Tell me in a pm if you don't want to disclose this information on the site. I am a nurse in the UK and have very specific reasons for asking you these questions, but feel free to tell me where to get off if you don't wish to.

I am not here to tell you its a bad or a good thing what you are doing, but I am here to support your decision....

Hope to hear from you soon

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I don't mind answering personal questions at all.

When I lose the weight, I do not do it for others necessarily. I do it for myself. I feel a lot better at 157'ish right now then I did at 200 lbs.

I don't think its simply being more liked - I have lots of friends right now and almost all girls/guys say I'm not fat or overweight..

For Fun - I do something with my friends.Whether its going to a Pool place, to the beach,or just even hanging out at our houses ( mainly mine ). I see friends every single day and every night.They pretty much hang with me until usually 11:30'ish.

We talk about anything..Hell we've had talks about racism ( saw a movie based on it ) to girlfriends to cars to whatever..

Sexual preference? Lean more toward girls but I'm also open to guys.Some call me bi, confused, somewhat bi,etc.. Honestly I don't care what other people think accept for my friends and My gf's.

I did manage to eat today though... and I was able to snack last night without throwing up, only ate a few chicken tenders from burger king though.. thats about 80 calories, or 90...Today though I ate a regular school lunch ( went for most nutrious, Turkey Cassorole with Corn and a roll, watermelon and chocolate milk. ) felt goood but i don't feel like eating again.