My mother drives me crazy for 5 reasons:
1- She treats me like a 4 year old
2- She has told me that I'm fat and that I need to lose weight for the past 3 years since I was 12 ( I'm 5'6" and 145lbs)
3- I've only been in trouble ONCE and still she keeps like a 6 inch leash on me
4- She gets mad at me and takes things out on me, and when I ask her why she's mad, she never has a reason and just says "I don't know"
5- She makes me feel like my opinions don't matter. I don't feel like I can tell her anything... even the simple things. When I do try to approach her, it feels like she backs me into a corner. I want to be able to tell her how I feel and how much she hurts me, but almost I'm scared that she will get mad at me for feeling that way.
I try to be sooooo perfect for her. I've only been in trouble once, and that was for being late for cerfew. I bust my ass to keep my grades high (my lowest this whole year was a 96% and I'm in advanced and honors classes) and be just perfect for her in general... but she doesn't seem to notice or care. I'm such a tightass for it, and I want to be able to relax and have fun, but I'm just sooo terrified of her that I can't.
I've become such a Daddy's girl now because I'm trying to get away from her so much. I love him. He breaks up our fights, and is the rational third party in just about everything. If I didn't have him around, I don't know where I'd be.
Please... I really don't want this to go on any longer. I want to have a good relationship with my mother. I want to be able to trust her, and I want her to trust me. If anyone has any advice on how I can approach my mother without getting terrified and chickening out like always, it would be greatly appreciated. Or even any advice in general. Anything would help, whether it's just to know that I'm not alone in this, or advice on how I can deal with her for the next three years until I graduate. Thanks.