Venga Posted March 2, 2007 Share Posted March 2, 2007 a few weeks ago, i had a pretty bad breakdown and i ended up cutting myself here and there.. one of which involved the word HATE on my leg... and its pretty big. [no worries... i've been fine ever since] i put neosporin and lotion on it all the time, hoping it would heal without a scar, but i was wrong. i really don't know what to do to make it fade. i don't want my friends or family to know what i've done... Link to comment
Hope75 Posted March 3, 2007 Share Posted March 3, 2007 Hi Venga, First I will address your concern about your scar, since that is what you asked for. There is a cream called Mederma that can help heal a scar and make it less visible over time. link removed But I am also worried about your cutting- and have to mention it since I wouldn't feel right not to. Do you want to talk about it? Hope Link to comment
Locke2121 Posted March 3, 2007 Share Posted March 3, 2007 I'm sorry. But time is about the only thing that will fade a scar. May I ask, WHY did you have a breakdown.... Tennessee boy here! YeeHaw! Link to comment
Stu147 Posted March 3, 2007 Share Posted March 3, 2007 a few weeks ago, i had a pretty bad breakdown and i ended up cutting myself here and there.. one of which involved the word HATE on my leg... and its pretty big. [no worries... i've been fine ever since] i put neosporin and lotion on it all the time, hoping it would heal without a scar, but i was wrong. i really don't know what to do to make it fade. i don't want my friends or family to know what i've done... Hi Venga, A lot will depend on how deep the cuts were. Were they surface cuts or deep? Perhaps you could use make-up to cover the scars while they heal. If they are not too deep then they will likely fade over time. I understand your situation exactly though, believe me. Perhaps if someone found out it wouldn't be the worst thing in the world. I know you would probably feel very ashamed about it if they did, but you are obviously suffering and are in need of some support. Hey, if you would like to talk about it anytime then drop me a PM. Take care... Link to comment
Venga Posted March 3, 2007 Author Share Posted March 3, 2007 thanks guys about my breakdown... i just had everything on my shoulders and i lost it. i got pretty drunk and i just wanted to destroy everything. my grades, i didn't have a job, my rough relationship status, my looks, my weight, feeling alone away at college, i felt like my friends were only hassling me about decisions i've made..... i felt like the world fell on my shoulders at one moment. i really didn't want to live anymore. I've never really cut myself much before. when i was a lot younger [11 - 13] i tried to cut my wrist or took pills.... but i've pretty much been fine ever since. anyway, i had an almost-uncontrolable urge to hurt myself in some way... to just have to fight to survive. i told my boyfriend everything. i've done some pretty stupid things around him, and he hasn't yelled at me or made me feel bad in any way... i think since i've been reassured around him, i know he's there for me and i feel comfortable enough to open up to him now. I've really been fine ever since. i'm glad you all were concerned Link to comment
Locke2121 Posted March 3, 2007 Share Posted March 3, 2007 Thats why we're here sweety. Promise us the next time you feel like hurting yourself, you'll come talk to us first? We won't judge you, rant or rave...we'll listen. Link to comment
Venga Posted March 3, 2007 Author Share Posted March 3, 2007 Thank you Locke..... thats why i'm here so much! this site has helped so much when i need a rant. plus i like to help people that i can relate to. [from chatt, living in middle TN, moving to Knox!] Link to comment
musicguy Posted March 3, 2007 Share Posted March 3, 2007 I was just told cocoa butter works too Link to comment
isisastaria Posted March 3, 2007 Share Posted March 3, 2007 There are new laser surgeries. Those are expensive, I know. Problem is, you could get it removed and you might just leave another one somewhere else( if you don't use another way to deal). You HAVE to substitute this behavior for something else. Can you call your bf or a good friend you can trust instead? How about therapy? You are frustrated with things out of your control and taking it out on yourself. This stems from self-disgust/hate/anger, etc... why are you so pissed at yourself? And why is it going inward towards you when it should be told to the people you are mad at? Link to comment
zeusmoose Posted March 4, 2007 Share Posted March 4, 2007 hi I've got some scars on my leg from surgery (as well as ones on my hands from cutting) and I've found this stuff called Bio-oil ( at least that's what it's called in the uk) and it's really good. Link to comment
Venga Posted March 14, 2007 Author Share Posted March 14, 2007 isisastaria... you seem to know just how i feel. i don't know what it is.. i've been doing alot better lately. i used to be really depressed when i was younger.. but i haven't had any problems until this schoolyear. i breakdown alot... and this was the worst its ever been. i haven't really done anything like this ever since. and yes... it has much to do with self disgust and all that... i'm reallyunhappy with myself. i hate that i dont have any talents, i hate my body, i hate that i feel i can't control it. i'm healthy... i eat well, exercise... i'm a pretty active person. tai chi, yoga, pilates... i run three times a week [usually..] and i'm even taking up skateboarding. my biggest problem is that i think i eat too much sitting alone in my dormroom. i don't like the way my mind works... just the kind of person i am. i have never felt like i was good enough for anything... i've come to terms with my body. I'm not a big fan of it... but i'm comfortable with "this is how i look." whatever. But i don't think anyone else has come to terms with how i look... i doubt anyone would want to see me at the beach... and i avoid such occasions. I've seriously considered surgery to fix some problems (i would be so much more comfortable if my thighs were smaller... and didn't rub as much as they do..) and i'm still considering it.. i always feel like a burden... like no one wants to see me or hear my problems or deal with me when i break down.. i jsut take everything out on myself. Link to comment
Hope75 Posted March 17, 2007 Share Posted March 17, 2007 Hey Venga, Bottling your feelings up inside and building up that resentment can definitely lead to some of issue that are causing you to cut. You know that you can always vent here- but have you ever considered talking to a professional about how you feel too? Sometimes an objective professional opinion can help you work through what's eating at you. Just a thought. Link to comment
AnotherBrokenDoll Posted March 19, 2007 Share Posted March 19, 2007 Hey darl, Well i came accross with oil called bio oil But i don't know how much it helps and works. I'm trying it at the moment but i only started yesterday so... As others have said smaller scars will fade with time. Wish you luck and i hope you can stop cutting, Love alwayz rozie. Link to comment
doyathink Posted March 19, 2007 Share Posted March 19, 2007 coco butter and vitamin E Link to comment
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