Thank you for your response. I have done some digging and yes I have always taken my job seriously but it's like I stopped drinking which as an addict was a main focus and then it went to work.
Was out at a birthday party today trying to focus solely on my child but kept thinking of work but at the same time knowing that I had to address this problem.
Wanting to focus on being healthier/ getting back to the gym and perhaps moving to a less intense area of work which may be more beneficial changes to make, especially for my self esteem.