Beth0975 Posted September 15, 2005 Share Posted September 15, 2005 Ok so in another post a woman posted that she loves men, etc etc, but she masterbates to chicks (porn) online. This is the same for me! Its been going on for like 6 years now. When I first met my now fiance (5 years ago) I openly told him this.. maybe because I knew he would think it was hot. Shortly after I got weird about it and shut up.. .I dont tell anyone this now, and I would never tell my fiance this anymore. I am very jealous when it comes to a hot chick, or a chick wearing very sexy clothes when my fiance and I are out. I am even really bad about naked chick in movies. If I ask him if he thinks a girl is hot and he says no but I do think she is hot I dont believe him. I think he is always looking at other women when we are out, but I think its because its me who is! I guess I figure if I am, then he must be. Sometimes he asks if I check out guys when I am out with my friends or whatever and honestly I can say that I am not, because I am always looking at women. Am I looking at them because I want to, or am I just so jealous that I want to see what women my fiance could be looking at? I love to look at porn online of women. I even masterbate to it. When I am out in public sometimes I feel turned on by some women that I see. I even fantasize of getting it on with another woman. Without the fiance of course. I think boobs are so hot. Years ago even my own vagina grossed me out, but I even find myself wanting to give oral sex to a woman. I know I would never have the guts to do this, and of course I would NEVER cheat on my fiance. I have NEVER felt turned on by any of my friends, or any women that I actually know. It makes me feel all gross and weird if I even ask myself if I think that person I know is hot. I often tell myself that the reason I get turned on by some women is because I want to look that sexy for my man.. I wish I had a body like that. I am overweight, and I only get turned on by thin (with a bit of meat on their bones), big boobed women. I love my fiance and I am so turned on by him.. the only thing that could possibly ruin our sex life is sometimes I feel too fat and am unwilling to try anything new, or even try hard at all. I cant wait to marry him, and I am so excited to have babies with him. I have no doubt in my mind that I love men (well my fiance). I really wouldnt want to spend my life with a woman.. I think I just want to have a "one night stand" type thing... I also do notice that when I do check out guys, I ALWAYS find myself thinking that I am so lucky to have such a hot fiance cause other guys are ugly! WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME??? Link to comment
guapa Posted September 15, 2005 Share Posted September 15, 2005 hey there is NOTHING wrong with you. totally normal. completely. hey, do you think he'd be cool with you having a one night stand with a woman? some guys don't feel as threatened by other women as they would be by other men...and it's true... some guys think it's hot. yep they do. after i told my exboyfriend i'd some day consider maybe being with a woman he confessed he had fantasies of me being with a woman. Link to comment
Napoleon Bonaparte Posted September 15, 2005 Share Posted September 15, 2005 If you have a one night stand with a woman and you are with yur fiancee there is definitely something wrong with it. That being said, it sounds like female narcacism. And the fact that guys like lesbianism makes you feel sexy when you are masterbating to chicks Link to comment
guapa Posted September 15, 2005 Share Posted September 15, 2005 there is NO such thing as right or wrong. i totally disagree. people have all sorts of fantasies and sometimes that's all they are there for.... but people also have different lifestyles and different situations with their partners. DON'T JUDGE. If your fiance says it's o.k. and you aren't lying to him, there is nothing wrong with it. and that's not true. lots of women masturbate to chicks that are with guys, they just don't talk about it!!! Link to comment
Napoleon Bonaparte Posted September 15, 2005 Share Posted September 15, 2005 gra[a do me a favor and don't tell me how to think. And yes there is such thing as right or wrong. If a guy is getting off or ambivalent about his gal pal sleeping with somebody else he is probably pretty sleezy. That being said swingers and people who share their mates tend to eventually get jealous or resentful. I have seen it a million times. Link to comment
Beth0975 Posted September 15, 2005 Author Share Posted September 15, 2005 There is NO WAY my fiance would want, or let me have a one night stand with a woman. He says CHEATING IS CHEATING! Ive never ASKED him if I could because honestly I dont think I would ever have the guts to actually do that, but we have talked about stuff before.. and I know he wouldnt allow it. He did say that if I was ever going to leave him for a woman then he would want it to be my best friend. NOT because he thinks thats hot, or she's hot, but because she is really good to me. She is a great friend. I dont really know why he would even say that, maybe he remembers the conversation about this from when we started dating. Well, actually... a few times we have wondered what each others boobs look like so we have partically shown each other.. just because we both thing our boobs are ugly! Also, when we are at clothing stores sometimes we go into each others change room to see an outfit.. My fiance kinda feels threatened by this, but its totally innocent. I am in NO WAY attracted to my best friend. She is a beautiful girl, but she is my best friend!!! If a hot naked woman is in a movie and I say to him "Oh I bet you think she is hot" he sometimes says "No, but I bet you like it!" So, one person who posted said there is nothing wrong with me, I didnt exactly get what the other posters think.... Why do I feel like this? I dont want to be turned on by women! Link to comment
Napoleon Bonaparte Posted September 15, 2005 Share Posted September 15, 2005 Beth homosexuality is genetic. With you it may by psychological or genetic since society persuades women to think lesbianism is sexy. Either you or bisexual or if you honestly prefer a womans body, maybe you should leave him and go full lesbian. Link to comment
Beth0975 Posted September 15, 2005 Author Share Posted September 15, 2005 lots of women masturbate to chicks that are with guys, they just don't talk about it!!! If this is true, then I feel alot better already...... Link to comment
Napoleon Bonaparte Posted September 15, 2005 Share Posted September 15, 2005 Alot of chicks masterbate to chicks with guys cuz they think society finds it hot and it makes them feel reassured about their own attractiveness. I say just become gay beth. Lose the boyfriend and go full fledged lesbian. Link to comment
Beth0975 Posted September 15, 2005 Author Share Posted September 15, 2005 Beth homosexuality is genetic. With you it may by psychological or genetic since society persuades women to think lesbianism is sexy. Either you or bisexual or if you honestly prefer a womans body, maybe you should leave him and go full lesbian. What I dont understand is the idea of going full lesbian does not appeal to me. My fiance's mother is now a lesbian. After 20 years of her being with men, she needed a shoulder to cry on, so she visited her friend who happened to be a lesbian. Low and Behold, she comes home a lesbian. They have been together for 4 years now. I have nothing against lesbians, but they disgust me. I do not think I could ever really finger a woman, or give oral sex.. What I really like is the idea of playing with breasts or sucking on them, OR MAYBE oral sex, if the woman was very clean and shaven. I get so turned on by my fiance. He is so sexy and I love making love to him.... GOSH I AM SO WEIRD!!!! Link to comment
Beth0975 Posted September 15, 2005 Author Share Posted September 15, 2005 If I lost the fiance, and became a lesbian I would spend the rest of my life just playing with breasts. I really love sex with my fiance as well.. I dont think it would ever be the same with a woman. (dildos or not) I want to have babies with my husband.. and give birth to a child who is a a part of me, and the love of my life.....not get artifically inseminated by some strange man. Link to comment
Napoleon Bonaparte Posted September 15, 2005 Share Posted September 15, 2005 Beth I wasnt really serious about the turning lesbian bit. I was trying to direct the discussion in a very specific direction subtley. I don't think you are a lesbian, or even really bi sexual. Are you attracted to penis at all? The male body? Link to comment
Napoleon Bonaparte Posted September 15, 2005 Share Posted September 15, 2005 You might be bi sexual, you are probably more likely bi curious. Something tells me you are gonna say you aren't attracted to the male body but that is still my answer. Link to comment
Beth0975 Posted September 15, 2005 Author Share Posted September 15, 2005 I am totally attracted to the male body, AND the penis! BUT only men that I am with! My fiance's body is so hot! I do not get turned on and masterbate to naked men in playgirl or porn online. Im glad you were just kidding about me becoming all lesbian.. I was started to get freaked out and VERY confused because I have never thought I needed to do that, or even wanted to. Link to comment
Napoleon Bonaparte Posted September 15, 2005 Share Posted September 15, 2005 Beth you're bi curious which is very common and nothing to worry about. Even if you are/were bi sexual you still prefer men overall so I don't think you need to worry about suddenly liking chicks more than men when you are with this guy. There are lesbians who are genetically lesbian and there are lesbians who become lesbians either out of an emotional attraction to a woman or because they reject men due to bad experiences, and there are bi sexuals. You I would put in the bi curious category and part of the reason why you aren't turned on by other men I think might be because having an emotional connection to your mate is very important to you. Whether or not I am wrong, what I am confident of is that you are perfectly normal and healthy. (If you were to have sex with a woman while with this guy or ask him if you could have sex with a woman however it would be risking more than you really want to risk for very little gain. You might as well be opening up pandora's box for your curiosity. Sometimes people should just be happy for the great things they have. And your fiancee seems like a decent guy which is good. Some fantasies should remain just that, fantasy.) Link to comment
mgirl Posted September 15, 2005 Share Posted September 15, 2005 Well, you're gay bascially... It's all about who you desire and i don't know anybody ( females i guess) who desires "breasts". I don't even and i am GAY! I think the thing is that you're covering up your gayness by justifying your "feelings" or attractions to your fiance. Link to comment
UT Posted September 15, 2005 Share Posted September 15, 2005 Beth homosexuality is genetic. With you it may by psychological or genetic since society persuades women to think lesbianism is sexy. Either you or bisexual or if you honestly prefer a womans body, maybe you should leave him and go full lesbian. Hmm... It's only one theory that homosexuality is genetic. It hasn't been proven. No one is really certain how homosexuality starts, but 60% of our behaviour depends on our life experience. ........................................... Beth you like penis and boobs... have you ever experimented with the thought of shemale sex? Maybe that's what you're looking for. Not a man and not a girl... just a though Link to comment
Beth0975 Posted September 15, 2005 Author Share Posted September 15, 2005 OMG! I am going to be sick! A man and woman in one? Ahhhh... I think I will stick with my super sexy hot fiance! I'll also stick with this just being my fantasy. Thank you to those who have actually helped me. Link to comment
Napoleon Bonaparte Posted September 15, 2005 Share Posted September 15, 2005 Thank you to those who have actually helped me. Beth someone helped you besides me? One told you you are gay. One told you to cheat One told you to dig shemales. Link to comment
ReadyorNot Posted September 15, 2005 Share Posted September 15, 2005 oh dear! don't listen to the ones who have been telling you that you are gay Link to comment
Beth0975 Posted September 15, 2005 Author Share Posted September 15, 2005 OH, no, it was just you actually.. I was thanking you and guapa (i think thats the name)... she said there was nothing wrong with me, which made me feel better. But ya, she did suggest that maybe the fiance would be ok if I cheated. I would NEVER cheat on him. Thank you Napoleon Bonaparte for helping me. Link to comment
Napoleon Bonaparte Posted September 15, 2005 Share Posted September 15, 2005 Beth by even asking your fiance if you could sleep with another person you would be asking extremely disloyal and insensitive hence guapa's advice was extremely destructive. I would dump you in a heat beat if I was engaged to you and you asked me if you could sleep with somebody else to see what it is like. Link to comment
Lil Posted September 16, 2005 Share Posted September 16, 2005 come on.......... the female body is way more attractive than the male body......guess what though, when you fall in love, you fall in love with the whole person, you want to become one with that person......nothing is wrong with beth... Link to comment
Napoleon Bonaparte Posted September 16, 2005 Share Posted September 16, 2005 LIL THAT IS Narcacistic and such social programing. obviously not every culture has thought so and certainly there are more gay men than females ugh female arrogance about their bodies makes me sick Link to comment
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