DimCrayola Posted October 23, 2017 Share Posted October 23, 2017 Hi All. My on again and off again ex have not spoken as I have begun NC. I am only on day four but a day ago he "accidentally" face timed me. He never uses that on his phone and the ringing alert stopped a few seconds after it started but it was him and it felt like a stab in the gut. I know it if foolish but I have a birthday coming up not to mention the holidays an I am so sad...not sure which would be worse him not reaching out (even though I would not be responding) or the alternative. I guess I am battling with the fact that I am agonizing over the breakup and he may not be. I have journaled and have been trying to allow myself to feel terrible while I grieve but I keep swinging back and forth from anger, to confusion, to sheer pain...and then, at times, hope. This is agony!!!! Link to comment
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