Larayn Posted August 18, 2008 Share Posted August 18, 2008 Hi Everyone 4½ years ago I had just been dumped by my ex-boyfriend who had cheated on me and I was home on vacation feeling hurt and angry. So I went out with my friends to get drunk and one thing let to another and I ended up going home with one of my friends... We had sex, but it was awfull, and by the time I got clear in my head I packed my things and went home... We never spoke of it! I only mentioned to a couple of my girlfriends as a "Oh you know what I once did when I was drunk"-story...And it was never weird or akward, because it was basically forgotten. But of course I didn't forget it... And now 4½ year later I have a problem. I now have the most amazing boyfriend ever and I love him so much! And he has of course met this friend of mine - and they like eachothers company, when we are all together, but everytime I feel so guilty that I haven't told my boyfriend about what happened...but I keep thinking that it would do more damage than good... But then a couple of days ago, I don't know what happened, but I decided to never keep secrets or lie to him and then I had to tell him! It was probably stupid and if I could take it back I probably would! Because to see his face when I said broke my heart - he looked choked and so sad! But he took ok, he kept saying that he would be ok, it would just take time... And everything has been pretty normal - exept when we had sex yesterday and afterwards he seemed distant and quited and asked if everything was ok and he said that he was trying to not get pictures in his head....This hurt more than anything, and I don't know what to do - I can't go back and change it...How do you make it all better?Is time all there is or? I allways knew it was a mistake, but I figured it was a mistake I could live with! I never imagined that so many years after it would cause this much pain... Link to comment
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