knightingale Posted July 14, 2008 Share Posted July 14, 2008 I didn't say everything I wanted to say, but I finally told him today that I'm going to start living my life like we'll never get back together. That I get that he doesn't want a relationship right now, not a real one, not one that will mean something in the end. That I'm sick of hurting over him, I'll get over it, I'm on my way to getting over it, and I've learned my lesson. Yes, it was over the internet on AIM, but he was unable to say anything afterward. I told him I had to go, that I'm glad his show went well last night (his band had a release party), and that I hope he starts talking to his best friend about everything soon because I have talked to her more since the breakup than he has. He said, "ok" and I said, "ok. take care. bye." I have finally taken control over the situation. I don't know how much power I have now, but it's enough for me to feel liberated from his grasp. I was sick of his apologies and "if we work to be friends, this could happen again when the time is right" and "I don't want to hurt you (even though he's doing it anyway)". Yeah, he may do something stupid like make out with someone to spite me, but I know him well enough to know that he will feel like s#!t afterwards. If the opportunity arises where I can say things I didn't think to say until after, or things I want to say in person, I will. But this is enough for now. It may not be a lot, but it'll do. I still love him and if he is able to be the man that I know he is capable of being before I have completely moved on, then we will see what happens. But if I have moved on by that point, it won't matter. I feel really good right now. I hope this feeling sticks. We'll see tomorrow. Stand up to your exes! Don't let them have the power! You can't control what they do or how they feel, only how you feel and what you do. Be strong and take control. Take that ball back and put it in your court. Link to comment
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