thanks guys for the advice....and i really appreciate what u all have suggested..I wasnt thinking to have a baby to have him back into my life..I have been through a lot in my life..I already have a 8yr of daughter..I was married before and abused physically and mentally...After i got divorced...I met a guy who took advantage of me for his own benefits....He financially used me...and then i broke up with him...then i met this guy..who was separated with his wife then....after few months when i fell in love with him...he turns around and tells me that his parents are pushing him to work out his marriage..He comes to me..and tells me that he loves me and will never forget...and if in the future it doesnt work out with her..he will come back..but while she was there..he was still seeing me...and suddenly one day i broke the secret to his wife..and he got upset...and i lost him forever...I Loved him...and i admire him a lot..his intelligence , his looks and his personality...being with three guys in my life...I had enough...and i feel very lonely..I dont think i will fall in love again..My heart has been torn apart which will never heal...So i thought to have his baby and spend the rest of my life living with his kid...and nourish..educate him ...as well as give him his name....when he grows up...and become something...then i will tell him who the father was..and that i never stopped loving him....even though he hurt me so much...That is the only reason why i wanted to have his baby...