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in my last post i explained what was goin on with my ex..we fight in emails..we broke up cause she cant handle a relationship..she called me the other night crying..she left a message saying she cant tell me to move and she doesnt no what the future holds..here are these emails... Timothy Filler, you are something else. I hate making you feel this way. It hurts so bad. I will be in Baltimore for the next two weeks. The next two weekends I will be in Sea Isle as well. I will never forget you as long as I live. You are so special to me.... "D" You want an answer Tim. Move on. I can't make you wait until I am ready. I may never be. I think you are so incredibly perfect in so many ways. Ever word you speak to me gives me chills and sometimes makes me cry. Yes, I care about you and like I said before I probably always will but I am not ready for what you have to offfer me right now. I am a very unstable person right now, I don't know what I want. And very busy with work. We have different lives. You never know what the future holds for us but for now move on and just let me go. Thank you again for all you have done for me and for just being you..... Truly, "D now it sounds to me like she wants to get back together..i am really fine with the break up i have moved on i am a great looking guy i dont have a problem with women what so ever but i did like this girl..in that email..she says"but for now move on and let me go?????????????????????????? HELp

i was dating this girl for about two months..we hit it off and told eachother in the beginning that we were going to take it slow and we did..then we sped it upand got intimate and had a great time together..after two months she said she needed to slow it down again or she was going to run..well right there i knew it was over. So, a week later she said that she wanted to end it completely. I was mad ofcourse but i liked her so i played it off cool like no problem. she wanted to be friends so i agreed. Well after a couple days i realized that i was being to much of a whimp and that i needed to express my anger. So we exchanged some nasty emails and some nice ones too. Well recently (like a week ago) through email i told her that it would be best if we werent friends because i wanted to get over her first then we might be friends..so we agreed no contact no emails nothing..so then she started to send me stupid emails like those chain letter things u forward to all of ur friends. i asked why are messing with my head we agreed no contact..she flipped out and started saying how she isnt messing with me and that i am nuts..so i email back saying that the two months were a waste of my time and that i dont care. well out of no where she calls and this is what i need advice on..she calls and says i was just wondering if we were cool and that i wanted to tell u that i am not seeing anyone..why would she need to tell me that for ..why wont she just leave me alone. so on the phone i got mad and told her to leave me alone.ok i am rambling..bottom line is we have not been dating for 5 weeks ..wheni get mad at her and send her nasty emails she acts all like worried and says things like why wont u be friends with me...and i cherish everymoment we had i dont regret anything..then when i apologize and i am nice to her she acts like she doesnt care and she is rude..what is her deal...???????????? she is 24 iam 26 she says she doesnt want to be in a relationship becuase she was in one for 6 yrs which ended like four yrs ago...

First of all, you have every reason not to like me, but I want you to get something straight, I did not PLAY you. I told you before, everything I have ever said to you, I meant when I was saying it. I have not lied to you. There were times when I was confused, and I told you I didn't know how I was feeling. I did say you are perfect for me, which you are. You are everything I ever wanted in someone, but there was something very important, emotionally I guess, that wasn't there. I have no idea what it was, I just know that it was something that was holding me back from being with you completely. It is nothing that you or me could control, something was just not there. Which means that all though with every bit of me i wanted us to be perfect, we weren't. I broke up with you the first time because I was starting to feel like there was something that wasn't right. After being away from you, I forgot that my feelings for you weren't perfect. I wanted to be with you so bad. I just remembered the "potential" of us, how great it should be. When we got back together I thought everything was fixed and we had just needed that time apart. But I was wrong. The feelings I should have been having for you weren't there. I tried so hard.........I wanted it to be right.......you are so wonderful...everything about you is amazing....I really really tried....but that is the problem. I shouldn't have to try to feel something. You have no idea how much I wish that certain connection was there, but for some reason, it wasn't. I cared about you so much, that is why I didn't want to hurt you. I didn't know what to do. If I broke up with you, i would break your heart again. If I stayed with you, I would be lying to myself and you and it would just make things worse in the long run. So with that in mind, the only thing I could do is stay distant from you and make you mad at me, so you wouldn't want to be with me. I know that wasn't the mature way of handling it, but I was dealing with so many mixed emotions and thoughts, that that is the only thing I was capable of doing. And yes, I still ended up hurting you in the process. I am truly deeply sorry for that. I hope that your trip is going well, good luck. kari ----- Original Message -----

If u read my lasts posts u will be filled in.. well we got back together and we are really in love with each other...she thinks i am absolutly wonderful..Well its been 3 weeks since we got back together and we have only been seeing each other 2 times a week..we hung out last night and i brought it up..she said that for someone reason which she can figure out , she still needs time to herself but she still wants to be with me? I guess she wants to take it slow..which i guess i dont have a problem with. but she didnt call today and she usually calls me right when she gets off work..how can someone be so in love with u , yet not want to spend time with u..i told her so, u are in love with, but you dont want to be with me..she goes, i do want to be with you but for some reason i just need time..maybe she is scared because she knows i am the one for her.? we are both 26. Than i asked do u just want me to move on? she said lets take it slow...its hard having someone love u and not being able to spend time with them..ALso.for some reason i cant get her off of my mind ever..i mean i still do my thing like work and play sports and go out with friends but i cant stop thinking about it..its starting to piss me off.. I love her so much and she even said that we are perfect for each other..I cant wait forever though. I think I am depressed too because i always think that things are going bad for me when they really arent and i just think in general a lot..do i need some medicine or something?? PLEASE HELP

if u read my last posts you will know the story..so i called her and she asked me abou tmy new job and all...i asked what her plans were for the week and she said that she was free and so did i..i asked her out for thurs. to get a drink...she said ok do u want to meet somewhere...i said well i can pick u up at your apartment or we can meet up. she said ok why dont you come here and then we can go out..is that good she wants me to pick her up?? then i said i was looking forward to seeing her and she said she was too..about 30min after the conversation i saw her online and we talked small talk and she wanted to see a pic of me that i sent her earlier that she never got so i resent it. and i told her i was excited to see her.and she said yeah it should be nice..is that good...?? well she has this friend johnny who is 55..he is so cool like a father figure to her..and her best friend is marybeth. well i asked her if she told them i said hi. she no i forgot but i told them i was seeing you this week..i was like what did they say and she said no reaction really...then she said they like u a lot..so the two most important people in her life like me and she went out of her way to tell me that....please help

so if you read my lasts posts u will see what i am talking about..this girl who is the sweetest and most classiest girl in the world knows i love her to death and she told me that no one has treated her like i have. She broke it off because i didnt have a job basically which in turn made her confused about her feelings toward me...she fell in love with me about 3 months ago..its been 3 weeks since the break up and i am so happy..i got my new job and it is awesome i told her about and she couldnt be happier..she wants to be independent for while and she went out of her way to tell me she is not looking for anyone..well she is meeting me for a celebration drink this week and i am so nervous..i am going to be myself..but whats good to talk about??? how can i tell if she still really loves and cares about me?? should i bring up the relationship? when we spoke a week ago i asked if she sill thinks about me and she said ofcourse i have your pic up in my place and i see your face everyday. I am calling her tonight to setup the date or what have u for thurs..i am so nervous to call..help help help her knowing that i love her, do u think shek would of agreed to meet if she didnt still think there was a chance..?

I met this girl about 3 months ago. We hit it off right away. She was not working at the time. I was working. I treated her like a queen. We did a lot together. A month into the relationship i lost my job. Havent been working that much. She told me she was in love with me..So am I. She started working a few weeks ago and got a new apartment. She introduced me to her whole family and everything. All of a sudden she didnt want to see me anymore. Why would she say all of these serious things than do that to me.? I asked her if she meant it and she said yes. Its been two weeks and she hasnt called at all. Yesterday i dropped some artwork she left in my car while i was moving her off at her house while she was working..i left a note saying that i hope u are well..i thought i would drop this stuff off for u. what should i do?? SOMEONE HELP