Melting

Back to start this challenege again. BU 1st Sept.... Working together 27th Oct Day 1 I have tried NC a few times and the longest I have lasted is 7 days. Now my ex is working with me and it has made NC alot harder. Before I was never strong enough for NC I always lived in hope we would get back together. The last 6wks he has said everything that I wanted to hear.... he wants me in his life, he wants to spend time with me, he wants a strong relationship with me. I believed your every word. Only to find that he had posted on his FB how in love he is with his ex and how he wants her back. I will no longer be his fallback girl, he only fills me with hurt. I will play 2nd best to no one. I honestly wish I could be in full NC with him. I just pray and hope he stays away from me and I am strong enough to keep telling him to get lost!

I am strong enough to not contact you, so please please be an honourable man and leave me alone. You know that you truly don't want me at all, be a good person and let me go.

Feeling sad about what I said to you now, but I know that I did the right thing as you couldn't even be bothered to respond...... thats how much i mean't to you.

Just told you to get stuffed and I mean't it.... sticking to my guns this time around, you are soooooooooo wrong for me.

Grow up and stop playing your silly little games, its hurtful!

I no longer sit in sadness, I am neither numb either... I just know that I am at a place now, where time will greatly heal me. You are still in my thoughts, but it is I who is in control of my mind now.

Good Night....

Chin up Sweetie, you will get there.... *hugs*

Having lunch with you today, lets see what that brings

You have no idea how I feel and how much it destroys me to see you every day.

I only have myself to blame for getting involved with you....

I was drunk when I texted you last night.... can we turn back time so u didn't receive it? Feeling like abit of an idiot this morning, not so much for what I said..... but purely for the fact I made contact with you!

I would be so much happier if you weren't in my life, but it is out of my control. How does the heart forget someone that they have to talk to several times a day? I hate it so much!

Another day I have to look at you, think of you. How could I be so unlucky?

I really hate working with you, today I had a bad day. My heart wants to reconcile with you, whilst my mind says.... run away fast! Do you not realise that by calling me "Sweetheart, babe"... telling me you want to spend time with me, is complete torture for me???? You know that you aren't ready for any form of a relationship, so why not just leave me be? How can you not see your actions as being cruel? Your so happy at work and I feel like * * * * all the time!

Im doing so much better, just a shame that I still have to see you every day. One day you won't be in my thoughts anymore and I wish it would hurry up!

I do feel bad for ignoring you, but it has to be this way...... Its for the best

Just stay away from me.....

I am in the same boat, it is terrible

Sunday morn and I am thinking of you...... Not how much I miss you, but how much of an idiot you are.

I just want to get on with my life without you in it and that is impossible. Like, seriously what are the odds of someone breaking your heart and then getting a job at the same workplace 2wks later! Not only that, but you sit next too me! I don't want to be friendzoned, I don't want to be your friend..... but what do i do? Ignore you to your face when you talk too me and then make it more uncomfortable for both of us? Crappy spot I have myself in....

I really wish I could be in NC, but as we working together it is impossible...... I have fallen into friendzone and I don't even want to be there!

I remember something like this happening to me 2 wks after we broke up. I was trying to delete his number and accidently rang it instead, I felt like an absolute idiot... Chin up chicky, its a long journey, but you will get there.

Just so you know, you don't make me miserable any more.... My life is worth so much more then just moping about you.

Day 7 BU 1st sept Keep the good days rolling along!