SapphireStar

Thanks. I don't know if it's amazing, but it's one of my better ones.

Sparkle _________________________ Stare into the darkness Watch the water rise and fall Sparkling in the ray of light That catches the beauty of it all. Wide awake and hoping Calm will come to you, For right now you are nothing No words to say--nothing to do You think about her often, Her life, her truths, her lies, And nothing will stop you from falling Hard and fast for her diguise. She slips on the same mask every day-- The one to hide her flaws-- Intricate and complicated, Just as the way she builds her walls. She runs from all the noise, the riots, and the crowds, Make believes she's somewhere else High up and soaring right beside the clouds. But, oh, how you long to bring her down, And make reality right for her, But the walls you can't climb over, You can't see her--you can't get in. Your desire isn't strong enough To help her through the pain, So you go and watch the water once more.. Watch it sparkle as it rains. ________________________________ This is for Gwen Araujo. Rest in peace, Gwen. We will always love you.

Okay, so, a few months ago, I went out with girl for a short time. After a while, I realized I just didn't like her--at all. So I broke it off. For a while, it was fine. I didn't hear from her at all. Then, out of the blue, she starts calling and IMing me, saying how she wants to talk, and asking all the time "Do you hate me?" "Why won't you talk to me anymore?" HELLO? It's getting really annoying, and it's also cutting into my personal life with online friends, and that is what really makes me angry. Can anyone please give me some advice as how to get her to leave me alone?

Spark ____________________________________________ You sit on the bench and wait for your cue. Wait for your mind to say something to you. To give you that spark, That light in the dark, So your words can forever shine through. The haze and the gloss is starting to clear. And in the distance you hear a sound that's quite near; "Here is the spark! The light in the dark! And with this, I'm sure you'll come through." You stand to get a better view, And out of the darkness, it comes to you; That one little spark, That light in the dark, To help your words forever ring true. ____________________________________________ Meh...Just something I wrote for the fun of it.

Knowing that the people I love are safe and happy. Reading this thread. Looking around and finding out that there actually are guys ou there that have a sense of humor that isn't perverted. Knowing I'm loved and cared for, even though I know I don't deserve it. Making new friends. Slow dancing. Swimming at night, when you can see the stars. Watching a meteor shower. Music. (Especially Micheal Buble) Traveling. Writing Reading. Having a good crying session. Doing wordsearches. ...Wow. That was a long list.

There was one thing that happened a while ago that I still think about from time to time. But I don't really feel comfortable talking about it here. Do you mind if I e-mail you? Thank you all for replying...I didn't really expect anyone to.

Oh, they know. The most they've done is tell me to stop. Once.

Hi. Thanks for replying. Usually, when I'm depressed, I am at home. I'm on here most of the time, on the computer. But it seems like every time I sign on, none of my friends are on, so I have no one to talk to. I get to thinking about some things that have happened in the past, when we've hit rough spots in our friendship. I guess that could be what's causing it. I do want to see a professional about everything that's going on, but I have no way to do that, because (a) I'm only fourteen, so I have zip power over where I go and what I do and (b) my parents won't take me. They don't believe me when I tell them I'm afraid I have a problem. They say I'm fine. I really hate them sometimes.

Hi. This is my first post here, and I was just wondering if there was anyone here who would listen. I'm a cutter. I have been for nearly a year and a half. It's really frusturating, because...I know why I cut--because of depression. I feel it every day---but I don't know where the depression is coming from. I have friends (only over IM, though) who know I'm doing this, and they've asked me to tell them every time I cave in and do it again, but lately, I haven't been. I don't want them disappointed in me, and I'm afraid they'll get angry. Thing is...every time I feel the need to cut, I go and do it, and I feel fine after that...but only for a few minutes. Then I just get the urge all over again. Sometimes I can hold out until I fall asleep or I go somewhere, but other times I can't and it just becomes a cycle. Just my story...I felt like I needed to tell the complete truth to people.