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  1. SapphireStar
    ...your own MOTHER buys you a...sex toy? This is humiliating. What am I supposed to say?
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    Shred my skin and pierce my eyes Let me down, hear my cries Torture makes a person strong I've needed torture all along. Make me cry, save my tears Keep me in a cage for years Tear me up and watch me cave This kind of torture is what I crave Stretch me till I start to break Make it last, I'll feel the hate Build me up and let me fall Force me to taste my blood on the wall Throw me in and hold me under Make a scream that sounds like thunder Shred my skin and pierce my eyes Let me down, hear my cries Torture makes a person strong I've needed torture all along.
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    Dreams ____________ Dreams of sorrow, dreams of hate, dreams of my life, dreaming me away. dreams of love, dreams of time, dreams of a place... a place that's mine
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    Scream _____________________________ Love in the form of liquid Draining you of life A rose red path down your sheet white skin Love is pain, they all say this The warnings are blocked, For you have your own ways Scream it, scream Let it all go Dark will overcome you Keep on screaming Scream away the fear, The Pain The Guilt Scream until you can't Scream all you wish For screaming solves nothing, And everything you need The scream of the razor on your skin Make the scream bleed.
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    Delightful Death ______________________________________________ Stop, stop, leave me here. Don't look back, you'll die I fear Caged like an animal, she cries into the darkness "I hope you're happy with your new life!" Help me die, help me die, I think we can do it, if we try I don't want to live here, not here in the dark Help me die, just help me die You'll offer your hand, but I won't reach This is how it's supposed to be The clutter and mess, it'll all be gone Blown away with the wind, towards the dawn The dawn of our delightful death
  6. SapphireStar
    Awww. I really enjoyed that! It's adorable.
  7. SapphireStar
    My family? I would hardly call it a family. I can't talk to them at all. My only sibling has moved away and I really don't want anything to do with him. He gave me hell as a child. I just really want to hit something right now, but I feel too weak. I haven't felt this way in...well, I don't think I've *ever* felt quite like this before.
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    To get right to the point, I'm falling apart. Both emotionally and mentally. I just had a relapse and sliced the hell out of my wrist again. But the worst thing about it is that I did it while talking to two people online. I told them both. Is that wrong? I wanted someone to help me feel better, so I went fishing for compassion. (I didn't get any, but that's not the point.) I can't help feeling guilty now. I'm literally shaking...I just don't know what to do anymore. I feel so alone, even though I'm not. I've been seriously contemplating suicide for the past few days. Whenever I try to talk to people about it, they just tell me to stop being emo. I;m NOT being emo, I just want to get away. I have the feeling my friends are getting bored with me, or annoyed because I have no self control, or I'm too insecure. But I can't help it. I;ve always been that way. I'm just waiting for one or all of them to up and leave, just like another guy did. And recently, another guy has come into my life. He's the sweetest guy ever, and I find myself attracted to him in more ways than one. But he's completely unattainable, for several reasons. My two best friends are getting married soon. I'm so happy for them, but they just seem so busy lately...it's almost like they never have time for me anymore. And I really love them, so it hurts when they don't talk to me for days at a time. And school is another thing. It's really starting to piss me off. I've already been threatened, and had a rumor started about me. *sigh* I feel like I'm going insane.
  9. SapphireStar
    I realize that, that's why I wrote this. It's my way of letting go. And thank you for you compliment.
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    To Say Goodbye _____________________________ You leave me here waiting You don't pick up the phone As I stand this night away thinking "What the hell did have I done wrong?" My love now is worthless if I can't give it to you Now my heart is broken, You have torn it in two. I really hope you're happy With your brand new life I know it's better than anything you could see in me So you just left me be. The worst thing, I know Is the way I can't hate you. In my broken heart you'll always reside, Could I just hear your voice once more, Even if it's to say goodbye?
  11. SapphireStar
    It's not odd at all. Why you would want to change it is beyond me. It's lovely, Steven. Please don't change a word of it.
  12. SapphireStar
    Really? You think telling a lie is okay in my situation?
  13. SapphireStar
    I realize that. It's part of the reason I want to *end* the relationship.
  14. SapphireStar
    He's eighteen.
  15. SapphireStar
    No, my parents don't know. They don't know a lot of what goes on with me, I'd really like to keep it that way.
  16. SapphireStar
    Okay, here's the story: I met this guy a while ago who's a lot older than me. Because I'm stupid, I said yes when he asked me out. Now, I'm completely uncomfortable. I find I become near physically sick when he touches me in any way. I have to break up with him, but I'm not sure how to do it. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Thanks.
  17. SapphireStar
    Wow. That was amazing. Best I've read in a long while. How long have you been writing poetry? You have a natural talent, Steven. Remember, use it to the best of your ability. Wonderful job.
  18. SapphireStar
    Very impressive. I don't think I'm capable of writing something as meaningful as that. Good job.
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    I used to be addicted to the Internet to the point it was almost like a disorder for me. I didn't go anywhere, I didn't see anyone, I just surfed and chatted. I honestly think a big part of it was my tendency of being overly insecure. I hated the way I looked, (and still do, somewhat) and I didn't want anybody I didn't know seeing me. I'm a lot better about it now, though. I'll go out often, but I still get online every day.
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  21. SapphireStar
    You have talent, absolutely. I enjoyed reading these. Keep it up!
  22. SapphireStar
    If you said "stop" or anything of the sort before or duing sex, and he didn't stop right then, then yes, it's rape. It doesn't matter if you said it was okay before. If you said no after, while you were having sex and he didn't stop, it's rape. But remember, it's NOT your fault. That guy was obviously an idiot and a pig and needs to be taught a lesson. If you ever need to talk to someone, feel free to PM me, okay? And remember, this was NOT your fault.
  23. SapphireStar
    Is this natural? I'm bisexual, and I'm having feeling for a certain trans woman...I've never had any feelings like this before. Any advice? Please?
  24. SapphireStar
    I agree. Very good job, Slightlybent.
  25. SapphireStar
    Amazing! I really enjoyed reading this.
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