liltalian

My gut is telling me he wants me back..but he wants to talk and see if we can work it out..or if anything will come of it. I do understand what you're saying DN about criticising the kids. It just bothers me when he tells them to quiet down or settle and they don't listen..or when his 9 year refuses to take his school work home or do anything in class and then gets suspended from school for 3 days.. And the mother really doesn't do anything..and he doesn't really say anything..it bothers me. They're good kids don't get me wrong..i know they too are going through difficult time therselves with parents not being together anymore. I know that bothers them too. I've always had a good core relationship with the boys...and I guess they were mentioning of me to him not too long ago..how they remember something i did. Oh how that brought tears to my eyes.

Well first of all we live 3 hours away...and there were times when we would fight...not really fight, just bicker. Then he threw out how I thought his kids were out of control. Which I said and made clear..that I said you better watch before your kids get out of control. Meaning..he would always have to get after them. Then he thought I was jealous of them..which was wrong. If I was such a jelous person of them...why would i bake cakes for birthdays, bake muffins..brownies..play games with them. Listen when they needed somone to talk to other than their own parents. I made that clear to him..and I think he finally realizes..he screwed up. And I feel that he wants me back.

My ex-boyfriend broke up with me on Memorial Day..and I NC for week, until he called that following Sunday. I told him that I could not communicate with anymore if you didn't want to be with me anymore. He agreed and said I was right. Well two weeks go by..and I get a text from him say... " I hope you are doing good". I was trying to hold back with NC and I failed. I told him, I would be lying to you and fooling myself if I said I was doing good. Basically, we got online and begain to start chatting. Then he said he was thinking of meeting for lunch or dinner so we could talk. Though only if I agree to not to push on getting back together at this moment. I told him that would be hard for me..knowing all my strong emotions and feelings that I have towards him. Note: We've been together for almost a year. I told him that I love him...and he said that he still has love for me..and it was hard not knowing what kind of response he was going to get when he texted me. He says he stills loves me..gosh I don't know what to do.. I need some advice or input on what I should do. I love this man with all my heart and soul..we had even talked about marriage previously. Thanks for all open suggestions here at enotalone.

I've been having trouble sleeping at night. I keeping having thoughts in my head of my ex..thinking of him all the time and thinking we shared and why we're not together anymore. And its been only 2 weeks since we spilt. I'm pretty much at the point of not crying anymore..cause I'm so numb inside. I feel alone, but yet I know I'm not alone, with thanks to family and friends. Part of me inside wants to call him..and another part of me says lets go. He's the one that didn't want the relationship anymore. But yet sends me a text to ask me how my weekend was one week later. Give me a break. I told him for me to move forward since he didn't want this relationship that I cannot keep having contact with him. And its been a week, and its killing me. But I don't want to rely on sleep aid to get sleep...it only makes me feel even worse. How can one be sooo tired but still not get any rest? My mind is soo working into overtime..and I can't take it.

I feel for you..going through the same thing. Though I have trouble going to sleep. Though thanks to sleep aids, I am able to fall asleep. But I don't want to have to rely on that you know..gosh its hard. I can't even turn on the radio...not even at work, I'll just start bawling if I hear a song that would remind me of him. Though I'm trying to keep myself busy...and its been only a week. Thanks to my friends and family, and ENA I have the support I need. We'll all get through this...we have to.

Well with his first marriage he was 17 and the story tells it there, he got his girlfriend pregnant and was married to her for about 5 years..then his second, well the cycle repeated itself and only lastet for about 1 or so. What kills me that he felt like he had a right to text me and ask how my weekend was..Uhhh hello you broke up with me week ago, how do heck do you think i feel. Then call me later...I told him I can't go on like this and what do you want from..cause obviously you made it clear that you wanted to end this. He was playing with feeling and emotions and for me to move forward which is hard I can't communicate with you anymore. Then acting like yeah your right...nothing else, other than I'm pooring out my heart and getting nothing in return. I just want to look at the pictures and remember the good times...and for which turns around and makes me cry all other again. I miss his voice and knowing that I'm not going to see him again. I know GOD willing that there's someone wating for me...that special someone to share my life..though I thought I was really go share my life him. He said he wanted to marry me and that I would be good wife.. What kind of person says that and then leaves. Gosh love hurts..I know I've experienced so much..you think I be a pro of handling this..the feeling and all the emotions..thinking you can never love again.

I though I met the man that I wanted to spend the rest of my life, with come to find out after our Vegas trip, well on Memorial Day he broke with me over the phone. Our relationship was a distance relationship. We had met about 10 months ago at this training and kicked off from practically day one. After our training we decided to continue to see one another even though we were 200 miles away. I would drive down to see him every other weekend. Granted I would drive due to fact we was only off every other weekend and the weekend he was off is when he had his 3 other children. Which I miss so much, and I feel so bad that I will never see them again. I thought everything was great up until Memorial Day weekend, when I didn't hear from him. I tried calling or even texting and that's all the form of communication that I got from him was that. I had text him what are you doing and he said cooking out..and I had texted back oh where.. and then really all hell broke lose from there..asking me why I was asking, like I was checking up on him or something. I thought it was just a simple question, I really rarely never ask..but I was bored that day...not feeling good at home and thought I would text him...since he wasn't calling.. Note: we would talk to each other day at least twice or three times a day. But when I did finally talked to him on Memorial Day...he just had this attitude with me..and I said what is wrong..and bammmm. He just started whaling on me..how I thought his kids were out of control..and he said that he didn't make me happy...which was a complete lie. I loved those kids as if they would of been my own. But thing is he had the nerve to text me and ask me how my weekend was. Of course I was sucked in and replied "Thanks" and later texted him, why are you texting me? Then he replied...you are right, i'll leave you alone. But later called me...but I told him he can't go on like this..my emotions and feeling are torn and I'm hurt. You were the one that wanted to break up with me. I told him that I love him and I do miss...but I never really got a reply. Other than I have to go..and my last words were bye to him. I know deep down that it really wasn't meant to be and that there's a reason why we're not together. But I think he made a mistake, and realized he messed up. But I'm not going back to have later be thrown into my face. I put 100% into this relationship. I've never been married and have no kids..and I put myself into his feet first with his kids and note he was divorced twice. I accpeted him and I took the whole package. Right now..I'm in shock and all I think about is him. Asking why God..why do I have to go through this. When is it going to be my turn for happiness? I've been trying to keep myself busy..and I guess I'm lucky that I don't have to run into him..but I stare at my stupid cell phone wondering if he's going to call. I just want to fade and disappear, and I know it won't go away that quick. But I can't stop crying..I feel like a basket case. I know I deserve better and somthing greater, someone who'll love me for me and not run when a curve ball is thrown at them. I just don't know why he did what he did.

I know what you're going through, my boyfriend just recently broke up with on Memorial Day. What day to have a memory...remembering. On top we just got back from Vegas. I've been crying my eyes out for days, and trying to keep busy but only time will heal the wounds that I have inside. It hurts, and I've been down the road before and I don't wish it anyone. Though I don't understand why he if wanted this to end. Why ask me text me and ask me how my weekend was? He's only playing with my emotions and its hard for me to ignore. Though I know this door closed for a reason and that another will open, but I really thought he was one that I could share the rest of my life. I know others like you have felt the same. I just pray that its gets better for you and others like us out there. It hurts, the nights and weekends are the worst. Can't sleep, thereforeeee I have to have sleep aid so I can get rest and push myself to work. Its hard, why do we have to go through this.. NO one deserves this, I mean no one.