i knew this kind of feelings some years ago
sometime life it's hard
at least u have parents,i grown as orphan
i had just one friend he was orphan as me
so we were unsplittable
just don't give up!
now i'm an happy person
i have good job,i have a gf,we are planning to marry
i still have that friend,now we joke about the ugly years of our childhood
try to keep your mind busy,plan things and do them
and time will say u are not a loser