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Hi. I need to get this out, because I am very confused and dont have a lot of answers. Im not quite sure what made me think of it, but when I was about 10 something happened with my dad. But Im not sure if it is like real abuse, because he didnt touch me or tell me to do anything. So I went to a therapist. She told me this was sexual abuse, but she said that I was old enough to know it was wrong, so it must have happened before when I was much younger. However, I dont remember anything. Is it possible to completely block out a memory? Is this common for those who experience abuse, and how long does it take you to remember it again? Also, I dont know what to do because I have to see them. I dont understand how I could have seen them so many times before and been fine, and not have remembered. What do you do if it is a family member and you have to see them? Has anyone experienced seeing and talking with a family member, and then remembering something like this? I am so confused. any advice would help thanx.

Ok this may not be a big deal, but I thought it could go in the emotions/feelings forum since im getting quite angry. Ok well I live in an apartment complex and my neighbors make me so angry because they are so loud and annoying. Our doors are right next to eachother, and we share a porch. Well they sit less than a foot from my door and talk so loud, and they smoke, and it goes in my house and stinks. This especially pisses me off. They wake me up in the morning, and keep me from sleeping at night. They're pretty much out there like 24/7. I also dont feel comfortable going out there to leave if want to, sometimes. I want to move somewhere else, or at least to a new apartment in the same complex when my lease is up, but I dont know if I'll be able to do that. Well thats about it. Im just really mad. I dont want to say anything to them because I doubt they would stop,and theyre nice. I dont know what to do though..any response would be appreciated.

I hate people smoking. They give second hand smoke to others, which is often just as bad as if they were smoking, but they choose not to smoke, and still have to suffer from it because of stupid smokers. It stinks, it kills, and its nasty. Maybe knowing that you are killing others will help you quit.

Im not sure if this goes here..but are you generally supposed to be friends with your neighbors? I live in an apartment so theyre right next to me. I see them every couple days, we just say hi. I dont think they like me, or maybe im not that friendly, but I dont know what else to say, i mean im just going home, but I feel like maybe im being rude, because all we've really said is hi, and they have lived there a few months. I dont really care if im friends with them and theyre actually pretty annoying sometimes, but it makes me feel bad. Does anyone not like their neighbors or have any advice??

Ok well I have been getting electrolysis done on my face for awhile now. I feel a bit of a freak. How common is electrolysis/waxing? Does anyone else get this done? I dont think it is very noticeable, but it still really bothers and annoys me sometimes, not to mention it is expensive. Well I was just wondering how common is this, and is waxing better?? Because whenever I get waxing anywhere it makes me break out. Thanx for any replies.

Music really affects me as well. It has a way of altering my mood. I listen to it in my car mostly, but the thing is that I cannot listen to it loudly at my apartment because it would disturb my neighbors. Im used to listening to it this way though, especially if im in a bad mood, so it is hard when I cannot listen to music whenever I want. I suppose I could get headphones but its not exactly the same. So does anyone have any suggestions?? I mean I cannot live without music!

Hey thanx for your reply. Ok well first of all im 19, Im in college. I guess the stress of school and all makes me kinda depressed. I dont even know why I feel this way...I guess my weight...Someone kindof close to me passed away a few months ago..This one guy...lots of things.. Sorry, Im not good at sharing things, even to strangers..I mean every time I have ever shared anything it seems to make it worse....

Ok well I have basically been feeling hopeless for a long time. I feel ok throughout the day, then I get depressed later on..I just wait for the day to pass and do things just so time will pass. I just dont know the point..I just kinda need someone to talk to but noone is ever there I tell people how I feel and it just makes it worse, so i am at a loss now. I dont even know what else to say..any advice?

I told my mom and of course she was just like its ok let it go, like every other thing like when my brother beats me oh its ok so like what the hell i guess he didnt do anything wrong she said it was innocent

HMM THANKS SO GODDAMN MUCH FOR CALLING ME WEIRD 0X

ok no its not weird to want to gain weight

I do like exersizing. But I can only do it around a lot of people, like walking on my street, which i dont know if i want to do. I actually Kindof want to gain weight, yet I need to lose weight. I think thats my problem. I want to gain weight. well thanx for your replies sorry this doesnt make sense.

Ok well I basically feel worthless because of my weight. I had been losing, but recently gained a bunch. I know how to lose weight, I just dont know how to stay motivated because after a while I get all depressed and wonder what is the point. In the past, people have acted better towards me when i was thin, which has left me kindof depressed and confused, because now its like im not good enough, I try to care about my health but when the self hatred comes in i dont care anymore. So I dont know what to do. I need to lose about 50 but I know something is holding me back..Does anyone have any suggestions on how I can stay motivated? Thanx

Thanx for all your replies. This only happened once. I was starting at the age to get curious and I wanted to have sex. I am too embaressed to tell anyone. No, I dont live with my dad, but I see him. I think I had put this in the back of my mind..Could this be why i feel weird about sexual things, and havent done anything?

I never thought I was abused or anything, and I guess I have put this in the back of my mind, but when I was about 10 I touched my dad, and he said it was ok. I dont want to go into specifics. He does other things that I dont like, but he is not bad. He didnt force me to do anything but he did say it was ok. I dont think I knew what I was doing. Im confused. Can anyone tell me what this is ?