My bf and I just celebrated our one year anniversary on Sunday,I love him and I know that he loves me.We have some problems and the biggest one I guess is that he's going to school almost 4 hours away from here.We dont get to see each other that much,twice a month,sometimes once.At the beginning of our relationship he would cry when our 2 or 3 days together were over and one of us had to get back home (he's a very sensitive person) I was always the one telling him to not cry,to be strong cause we'd see each other again soon but lately I've been the one crying and it sucks.When we are together everything is so wonderful,I love him so much that I just want to hold on to him forever and never let him go Leaving him has been the ugliest and hardest thing for me to do lately but I love our days together and I dont like my life as much when he's not here.There lies another problem,when we are not together we fight about stupid things,most of the time its my fault.I just think I'm so frustrated about not being able to be closer to him that I just start fighting about stupid stuff sometimes.I've had a lot of stress lately,personal problems and even though he can give me moral support there's nothing else he can do about it.And sometimes I'm frustrated about those things and when I talk with him I'm so mad already that I just say something bad to him or get mad with him and I know its not fair.So I decided something last week,I told him we shouldnt talk that much anymore,that I needed some time for myself,to think about me and try to sort out things in my life.Cause I know if we keep going like this its only gonna get worse and I dont wanna hurt him,its not fair for him so I'm not gonna hurt him anymore and hopefully when we get back to being the way we were everything would be so much better.
The thing is,I've never done this before and I know its gonna be so hard cause we're used to talking almost everyday.I know I should do things to keep me busy and all that but still I know its gonna be so hard But I do think its the right thing to do.I mean,I have to try to sort out my life first before trying to have a successful relationship with him.I dont know how long its gonna take,I told him weeks,perhaps more than a month,I honestly dont know.I just want some advice about whether ot not you think this is the right thing to do and how can I cope out with it better? How do I get used to not talking with him ? Cause I'm always thinking about him,everyday,and I'm honestly doing this for the best,to try to make our relationship better.
Thanks for reading.