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yea, ive tryed several different kinds. idk tho. it just seems everythings been worse since I started them. I do have a psycologist or w/e it is. I hate her tho so i dont really talk with her we just play cards. I find it easier and some what better talking with someone that isnt licensed to conscel [i cant spell] or writing in a journal. idk, but yeah. i have been cutting more and they arnt deep or whatnot but just mainly more of them.i just decided to give up on my friends becuz theres nothing that seems to work.

I was put on depression meds last year and they havnt helped one bit. I still cut and think of suicide. But lately, I go to school, you know the normal thing, come home and whatnot but when I get home I cant remember a thing from that day. I think about slitting my wrists at night but I dont. That is the good part. But, I still cut myself and people get all pissed off at me when they find out. I have never cut myself for attention before and I never plan on it. So many people think that, just becuz I wear short sleeves once in awhile. I got two kittens for christmas so I use that as an excuse and it works usually, except for the people that know me pretty well. I have a few friends that didnt cut until they found out that I do. I got to find a way to make them stop but nothing ever works. When I try things on them, I try them on me too. I can get myself to stop cutting for acouple days but then something happens and I do it again. I want to stop but then again, I dont. Anyone have any advice on how to get myself to quit?? or a way to get my friends to quit. For them I've tryed telling them that for everyone they do, I do ten. but that just leads me to doing it more. I still owe my friend 380 on me. Please, if anyone can, help me. bye

its not all that abnormal. maybe your not totally into your girl when it comes to that sorta stuff. relax and let it come naturally. she shouldnt be mad or whatever just becuz of that. maybe you should try not doing it for awhile just be with eachother.

lol, damn this is getting interesting! We broke up again. this time its becuz school is starting and we go to different schools. He says that he wont be able to see me hardly ever and when he cant see me as much as he wants he starts to loose "that certain feeling" and so he wants to just be friends for now. Ohs wells, life goes on..I think. Ive been rid of cutting for a full week but its hard. Well anyhigh. Thanks everyone for the advice.

thank you for the advice, we got back together. The only reason i have yet to complete commiting suicide is beczu i dont wanna hurt my baby. I love him. Well thank you.

nevermind on the advice, he broke up with me. away i go to cry in my corner.

im in a really bad mood today and i really really dont know why. I told my bf that im not in the mood to be messed with beczu he was saying some crap. So we got into this fight and hes like well i dont see why we are even going out if ur gonna kill yourself. I really like him and i dont wanna loose him! but things are tough to handle and i cant totally explain stuff. but i feel that if we break up tht it might get worse, he says: its hard to go on with u when ur always talkin about killin urself and cuttin urself and stuff like that cuz it makes me feel like im doin something wrong. Well hes not doing something wrong, i mean when i feel suicidal and then when we are together that all goes away. i need some help fast on what to do! please if any of that made any sense and u can help, please do!!!

okay first of all like everyone is saying get back on ur pills. i took trazazone or how ever u spell it. its a sleeping pill. for me it stopped all my dreams so i stopped taking it. try not going as deep anymore with ur cutting. Im a cutter too but am trying to stop, ive been doing it for 7 years but even as long as a month or 24 years, its still not a good thing. all i can say is stop and if u ever want to talk ill talk with u Sarah

okay.... May I ask who help_myfriend_iloveher is? Why do u even care that i cut? please tell me that Sarah