i could never talk to any of my friends because i hide behind a mask with them. In m middle school years i had no friends because i went to school with the smae people and so they knew the real me. Now i go to a completely diff school and so i hide behid a mask and am very secretive. My friends vent everything to me yet do not really notice when every single time i say nothing. i could never talk to a shrink or my parents or my firneds because they do not know i am depressed, or that i cut, or that i am suicidal. They could never know. it's my secret. And no body knows that im starting to be bulimic. talking is not one of my specialties and i can't do it. It's impossible for me to do, and i don' think i will ever be able to do it.