bostoneric Posted February 12, 2008 Share Posted February 12, 2008 3am and anxiety has kept me from sleeping at all tonight. its been over 2 months since i left and seems like the last week has been really hard again. Link to comment
nikkers04 Posted February 12, 2008 Share Posted February 12, 2008 i know the feeling bostoneric...its been over a month since he left and everything just keeps getting me down. I'm hoping after 30 days no contact we can talk but i dnt know that he will want to talk to me even then today is day 6 Link to comment
GetMeBack Posted February 12, 2008 Share Posted February 12, 2008 i know the feeling bostoneric...its been over a month since he left and everything just keeps getting me down. I'm hoping after 30 days no contact we can talk but i dnt know that he will want to talk to me even then today is day 6 I feel so down today I feel sick!. The realisation that he really doesnt love me is setting in and its making me feel dizzy Link to comment
samantha20 Posted February 12, 2008 Share Posted February 12, 2008 I don't think I can do this. I've arranged to meet up with my ex as friends tonight. It'll be the first time I've actually seen her in over 3 weeks. This could go horribly wrong I know.. She's happy with her bf, I just miss her so much that I feel like friends is better than nothing. It's kind of an experiment really.. If it goes horribly wrong and I end up a crying wreck then I'll know that I can't be friends with her and will start nc again. I just hate not having her in my life. I suggested going out for a drink and she said she doesn't have any money, so I said that I have a bottle of wine at home and she then said that she can't drinks because she's on medication.. hmm. Do you think that she doesn't want to drink because she doesn't trust herself not to come on to me? Or is that just wishful thinking..? Link to comment
l_lollipop Posted February 12, 2008 Share Posted February 12, 2008 Samantha you sound in the same position as me... I was willing to hold on to 'friendship' and saw my ex on Sunday - big mistake. I cried more than I have before and we held hands and the pain was unbearable. Don't put yourself through it. I did it less than 72 hours ago and now I'm my 1st day NC because I can't do it to myself. If you do meet her.. I bet you a £100 you'll be going NC tomorrow!!! But hey, maybe that's a good thing! Link to comment
nikkers04 Posted February 12, 2008 Share Posted February 12, 2008 samantha if you think thing are not going to go well call and cancel it will be like starting over at day one! you dont want that give yourself more time before meeting up with her as "friends" Link to comment
nikkers04 Posted February 12, 2008 Share Posted February 12, 2008 getmeback...I know what you mean by "dizzy" i get these panik attacks and i wonder if I should just stop breathing Link to comment
LilBear Posted February 12, 2008 Share Posted February 12, 2008 1224am! 13th February Day 24! Ex's friend asked me out to a movie for tonight But sadly had to decline.. Link to comment
nikkers04 Posted February 12, 2008 Share Posted February 12, 2008 crazy its 9:29 AM FEB 12th here haha Link to comment
AngryHeart Posted February 12, 2008 Share Posted February 12, 2008 I do feel powerful sometimes. But then I get on a big downer again. My mum just said something that kinda upset me. I told her the ex didn't email back the last time. She said "he never really did much at all since you split up, did he?" Oh thanks for the reminder, mum! Grrr. Whatever. It will be a week tomorrow. Link to comment
l_lollipop Posted February 12, 2008 Share Posted February 12, 2008 LilBear, I've watched your days slowly go up and you're doing great - a real insipration! I'm doing well on day one - no urge to talk to my ex at all! Link to comment
nikkers04 Posted February 12, 2008 Share Posted February 12, 2008 i was doing fine now i feel like i want to crawl out of my skin i just want to hear his voice! Link to comment
AngryHeart Posted February 12, 2008 Share Posted February 12, 2008 Yeah, I really really miss the good times. I miss the sweet romantic times, the funny silly times...his cute little face....... Link to comment
l_lollipop Posted February 12, 2008 Share Posted February 12, 2008 Nearly through Day one and I have a smile! Still no desire to call him. Link to comment
Wotgorilla Posted February 12, 2008 Share Posted February 12, 2008 Good for you sparkle! Link to comment
twinkle72 Posted February 12, 2008 Share Posted February 12, 2008 Good job I Sparkle!!! Link to comment
AngryHeart Posted February 12, 2008 Share Posted February 12, 2008 You go, Sparkle and gorilla!!! You can do this. I'm proud of ya both! Well, another 3 hours and then it will be onto day 7 again, for me! Link to comment
twinkle72 Posted February 12, 2008 Share Posted February 12, 2008 congrats!!! that's awesome. Link to comment
LilBear Posted February 12, 2008 Share Posted February 12, 2008 Be strong! You're doing good! I'm on day 24 and it's not getting any easier. I've had good days and bad days just like the rest of us. Link to comment
cr44hill Posted February 13, 2008 Share Posted February 13, 2008 Day 7 and it is the toughest day since day 1 a week ago. I've done this before, make it 7-8 days, then send an email and leave a voicemail. the emails get returned with simple what's been going on stuff. Voicemails - no reply. I don't lay it on but I clearly am looking for something that just isn't happening. I'm sticking NC but this urge to contact her is unreal, man, this sucks. I went on a 3rd date this past weekend, really nice girl, but I'm not interested as all I can do is think of the ex. I have zero interest in dating so maybe i need a time out. Will contacting the ex just push her away more? when is the right time to contact, after 30 days? I know, I know, when I'm healed, but when is that? I am proud of myself for each day I make it but I also feel like I'm one day further from her being in my life. I don't want to date ANY other girls. Link to comment
sara1 Posted February 13, 2008 Share Posted February 13, 2008 I think the first two weeks are the most difficult. I could be wrong as i'm in my third week but that's my thought for now. Link to comment
AngryHeart Posted February 13, 2008 Share Posted February 13, 2008 Officialy the 7th day. I went about 4 or 5 weeks before, but then it all came pouring back again, and I had a scare so I contacted him. Link to comment
foreverlost Posted February 13, 2008 Share Posted February 13, 2008 to be honest I broke NC.. and slept with him. strangely I am feeling better... kind of realized that he just needs his alone time and space... all he does is plays xbox and goes to work... I almost feel sorry for him, but I think he will come back once he realizes what's missing... I felt his energy increase when I was there a couple days ago because I was joking around with him and I think he realized what he is missing out on... but then again, he said it was a one time thing and the sex won't happen again... the plus thing is that he said we can EVENTUALLY be friends.. as opposed to two weeks before saying he doesn't ever want to be my friend. I sound crazy I know... but... yeah I will shut up. Link to comment
cr44hill Posted February 13, 2008 Share Posted February 13, 2008 Angry - what was it that caused you to break NC? you said a scare of some sort. As a newbie on day 7 I am hoping it gets better by then so I want success stories but those people fully healed prob. don't post on here anymore. That said, i would love to be back with my ex and is why i'm on this board..... Link to comment
AngryHeart Posted February 13, 2008 Share Posted February 13, 2008 I thought I might be pregnant, and he was the only one who could be the dad! But lukily the doctor said no, it was a false alarm. Link to comment
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