Heartbrokennnx3 Posted October 21, 2021 Share Posted October 21, 2021 I’ve been with my Ex for 5 years. We had a child together who is 8 months. The relationship has been rocky since last weeks of my pregnancy. Couple of days before I gave birth we got into a huge argument and I packed my things and left. Fast forward to the day I gave birth he was there. When we came home with the baby things started to get rough again, arguing, him abusing me mentally and emotionally. When my daughter was 5 months we got into a physical fight where he put his hands on me ( 1st time ) ACS got involved because me and baby had to go to hospital. I love my daughter’s father and I don’t ever think we’ll get back together. Idk how to heal and move on I keep replaying the situation in my head day in and day out. I’m heartbroken I even asked the court if we can do family therapy and he turned it down. He doesn’t want anything to do with me. Link to comment
Popular Post melancholy123 Posted October 21, 2021 Popular Post Share Posted October 21, 2021 Take yourself to therapy, even if he won't go. You need some help to navigate this. Also talk to a lawyer to establish child support which he has to pay. 5 Link to comment
lostandhurt Posted October 21, 2021 Share Posted October 21, 2021 Focusing on your daughter and making the happiest life possible for her is your first step. Moving on from an abusive relationship seems like it should be easy but many times it is not. All the what ifs and whys make it hard to just give up and accept it was bad and needed to end. The heart and the mind are always struggling for control. Your mind knows logically that there was more bad than good and in the end abuse so it had to end but your heart only knows love and heartbreak so it clings to what it wants because it doesn't want the heartbreak. You know you two are not good together and would make a home filled with fights and tension for your little girl so keep reminding yourself that being apart is what is best for her. Being alone taking care of a baby is hard but doing it while walking on eggshells and constant fighting is even harder. Do you have family nearby? Some sort of support system? Lost 2 Link to comment
Wiseman2 Posted October 21, 2021 Share Posted October 21, 2021 2 hours ago, Heartbrokennnx3 said: . When my daughter was 5 months we got into a physical fight where he put his hands on me ( 1st time ) ACS got involved because me and baby had to go to hospital. I even asked the court if we can do family therapy Was he arrested? As you know, medical personnel are mandatory reporters for child abuse. He's a criminal who assaulted you and your child. Was a restraining order issues against him to protect your child? It's not up to you anymore. Even if you "love" this creep, the courts are protecting your child from him. Where are you staying? Make sure you maintain strict no contact. If you continue to engage in child abuse by allowing this, they'll take your child away. Next time,if you continue with him,it may not be the hospital but the morgue. Wake up and protect your child. If you go b 1 1 Link to comment
Rose Mosse Posted October 21, 2021 Share Posted October 21, 2021 11 hours ago, Heartbrokennnx3 said: He doesn’t want anything to do with me. This is a good thing. Take care of yourself and your child. 2 Link to comment
tattoobunnie Posted October 21, 2021 Share Posted October 21, 2021 When you are suffering from PTSD from emotional and physical abuse, your brain is so fried...you need to join a therapy group...what he did was wrong, and you could have been the most well behaved or perfect, and he would have still tried to tear you down. What he does isn't love...it's about control. Be strong. Lean on family and friends. Keep your daughter safe. Abusers escalate in increments from emotion to physical. From you to your children. Don't go back. Get help. Get therapy. 3 Link to comment
Heartbrokennnx3 Posted October 22, 2021 Author Share Posted October 22, 2021 @Wiseman2 he was arrested, the baby and I have an order of protection against him. The courts modified it so that he can ONLY see the baby supervised. At first it was at the ACS center now it’s supervised with his mom. I’m staying with family and do drop offs at the precinct with his mom. My daughter’s father and I DO NOT HAVE ANY CONTACT whatsoever. 1 Link to comment
Heartbrokennnx3 Posted October 22, 2021 Author Share Posted October 22, 2021 @tattoobunnieive been searching for therapy groups in my area with no luck. I’m going to do individual therapy because I’m going insane here. I need to be able to relate to others and take in advice. 1 Link to comment
Heartbrokennnx3 Posted October 22, 2021 Author Share Posted October 22, 2021 Thank you everyone for the words. I appreciate it. 1 1 Link to comment
lostandhurt Posted October 22, 2021 Share Posted October 22, 2021 Hang in there and keep posting. We will help all we can. When you have time search this forum using some key words from your issue. I have been around here a long time and I have seem this more times than I can count. You just might find some nuggets of truth and help in older threads. Keep posting Lost 3 Link to comment
Wiseman2 Posted October 22, 2021 Share Posted October 22, 2021 2 hours ago, Heartbrokennnx3 said: @Wiseman2 he was arrested, the baby and I have an order of protection against him. The courts modified it so that he can ONLY see the baby supervised. At first it was at the ACS center now it’s supervised with his mom. I’m staying with family and do drop offs at the precinct with his mom. My daughter’s father and I DO NOT HAVE ANY CONTACT whatsoever. Excellent. Take care of yourself and your child. Sorry this happened. Good you are with family and out of that situation. 1 Link to comment
catfeeder Posted October 24, 2021 Share Posted October 24, 2021 My heart goes out to you. As painful as this is at this moment, you will thank yourself later for learning from this early and avoiding future harm to you and your baby. Head high, and write more if it helps. 2 Link to comment
Heartbrokennnx3 Posted October 25, 2021 Author Share Posted October 25, 2021 9 hours ago, catfeeder said: My heart goes out to you. As painful as this is at this moment, you will thank yourself later for learning from this early and avoiding future harm to you and your baby. Head high, and write more if it helps. Thank you so much, I appreciate it. ❤️ 1 Link to comment
spinstermanquee Posted February 20, 2022 Share Posted February 20, 2022 dear heartbrokennnx3, i have no experience in this arena except to say, i wish i could sit beside you right now like a mom or female friend. i would hold you (mom or sisterly-like) and listen to all your concerns, let you weep your tears and give you big hugs and lots of kleenex. i would coo over your daughter, who is probably the biggest source of joy in your universe. just thinking about that makes me smile 🙂 i was so lucky to participate in rearing a lovely girl. once all your tears were cried out and all your concerns for your baby girl were out, and you were calm again, i would listen, support you, and maybe make some suggestions when you lay out your preferred plan to minimize the dangers and maximize her support, health, and well being back into the primary focus (not that you're not already doing that - we're strangers on the internet after all, lol). I would use all my man energy to help you, haha. she is the future. he is the past. kick him to the curb where he belongs and far away from her tiny vulnerable self. she needs your big, fierce, powerful mamma persona to kick in, STAT Link to comment
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