So... it keeps happening.

[boltnrun]

I can guarantee this woman will neither calm nor nourish you.

 

If calm and nourishment are what you need, why seek out and pursue chaos and mistreatment?

[Lauralatifa]

So why don't you follow the professional advice instead of indulging in obsessive thinking?

 

Omg amazing idea, wow.

People are not as simple as that. You should know, you are one person too. Sometimes we are in pain and obsessive thinking protect us from depression.

[Lauralatifa]

A little update for everyone... i apreciate you all took the time to counsel me and help me making a decision. So im here to inform im doing no contact to heal, and that means i cancelled the travel... thanks.

[ThatwasThen]

A little update for everyone... i apreciate you all took the time to counsel me and help me making a decision. So im here to inform im doing no contact to heal, and that means i cancelled the travel... thanks.

 

Good! Now, immediately change your thoughts to something else when she pops into your head. You have done something that your inner child will love you for. When your inner child feels valued, then the grownup you will feel valued as well. Feeling valued will improve your self worth and that will lead you to picking a decent, good person worth being with.