Mavrik Posted May 11, 2017 Share Posted May 11, 2017 After an intense 12 month relationship with my ex gf who has borderline personality disorder. The relationship ended a day after my birthday this Feb (great present thanks), breakup came out of the blue, but BPD being how it is, it would have ended at some point anyway. As well as the intensity out of work, we worked together also we got to spend so much time together. I didn't see it but she was changing me for the worse. So she ended the relationship then a short while later got herself fired. I set NC and stuck to it. But was off my meds and my depression came back. So now back on meds. Also starting counselling soon, go to the gym and alsorts., It's been 3 weeks since NC, but at work this week I had a relapse and felt so low and upset. To see her empty desk where we once used to chat a lot and turn to each other when we had stuff going on, yet now the desk is empty, my hearts empty and my life seems empty. BPD move on very quick and don't suffer the heartbreak we do, and I'm sure she's onto the next relationship (thaf will fail too). I'm all over the place, sad at the lost, miss her lots, angry at her hurt, angry thaf she dropped me into depression, sad thaf my depression is back. Lonely because she's no longer at her desk. I thought I was doing so well but clearly that wasn't the case. People say time heals, time also drags you back and forth too, is this part of the healing process? Anyone got any love they can send me, as I'm feeling so bad 😢😢😢 Link to comment
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