ut03n9 Posted December 5, 2016 Share Posted December 5, 2016 I read the books and the forums and they tell me to move on and live your life. How can I when you were my life. I view you as my soulmate and you view me as "repulsive". I walk around with a weight on my chest and spirit that blocks out any other thought. It's the only thing I feel, this grief is crushing me and there is no escape. I wrote my suicide notes, said goodbye to my dogs, filled the tub with warm water and got in. when it came time to open my veins I chickened out. Death would be the easy way out, it would not have me. This is my 2nd divorce and I know the road I must travel, I just can't do it again. I know the pain of it, the thirst for companionship, the unforgiving pavement the emptiness and coldness of this road . How do I tell my family I failed again, how do I find someone else to love. How do I love myself again. This time I have no friends to lean on, no father to speak with. I hate this road, this place of darkness and dispair Link to comment
melancholy123 Posted December 6, 2016 Share Posted December 6, 2016 This has been posted twice now. Link to comment
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